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| Today was a pretty boring day. Woke up at 1. My dad wanted me to put a bunch more rocks over in the rock garden he's still working on. I almost dies because it was about 95 degrees out today. That ended at like 3 or something. Then I took a little nap and ended up waking up at 7, which was the time that I had to go meet Lauren, Jeff, Dave, Mike, and Michelle. We all went to Applebee's for a Drug Fair reunion. We had a good time. Dave dropped me back at my car and then I drove on over to Lauren's. We were uber bored so we took a ride over on 23 and went to Clinton Road to find some Satanists. It was a good time. Stopping in the middle of it and turning the lights and engine off scared the shit out of both of us. Cuz we're cool like that? Heheh. So yeah....came home and now I'm back in my happy place. I'll probably go to bed in like 2 hours but whatever. Talk to yous all later. Peace. <3 Hank | ||||||||||
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| I read something a while ago and it kind of made me mad because I felt like it applied to every guy in the world. Forgive me for reading it but I couldn't help myself. Anyway....it said that most guys in the world are looking for nothing but that whore or slut that he can just use and throw away like the condom he used. She's still mad at me I know that, and I have a feeling that that blog was directed at me. Take this any way you want when I say this. I didn't use her, and I didn't use this one either. To be perfectly honest, I'm 18 years old and I don't know what I want yet. The only thing I can do is live my life, try different things. I knew that relationship would have concluded eventually, and I'm pretty sure this one will to. And I'm not saying I want this one to either because I'm having such a great time now. Forgive me for anything I supposedly did wrong, but I frankly don't think I did. Maybe what I did was the right thing to do. Now after reading things, it seems like she's happier now because it makes me feel like I was holding her down. I guess I was, even though I didn't mean to. We had our moment of hardcore hatred, but like it said in her blog, only time will heal our wounds. I don't hate her, I want her to be happy. And I don't regret the relationship at all, and no I did not tear up any of the pictures, I just stored them in a box with the notes so that my memories won't disappear. They're worth keeping. As for now, I'm enjoying the decision I made, although I went to my doctor again to tell him the story of the past month. I'll ask for meds next week when I go back. Something's still not right with me. Things will work themselves out eventually. Life is full of surprises. I guess that's pretty much my rant right now. Sorry I read it but I guess I had my reasons. Good night everyone. <3 Always, Hank | ||||||||
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| I haven't written in my Caleida in ages. But now I'm doing it for once because I have something to write about. Lauren. You know a while ago I didn't have feelings for her really. But I learned that spending time with someone you're not that attracted to changes lickety split. I care about her so much and I don't know what I would do if anything happened to her. But I hate the fact that I am afraid to hurt her, which I guess is why I keep hesitating to make this a real relationship. I don't wanna pull another Cristina because it just comes back to me in the end, and in turn causes me to have to go back to Dr. Susswein. Talking to someone doesn't help all that much. I really wish I was on medication, because it will make everything alright with me. I was talking with my aunt and parents about getting hypnotized. They said that they can fix your problems a lot faster. So maybe if I have someone hypnotize me into feeling sick when I get pissed off, or get me to stop smoking in some way, everything will get better. I dunno. God I really like Lauren. I wish life was more simple, I hate making choices. If I do go out with Lauren and end up breaking up with her a little bit down the road...I dunno....I just don't know. Breakups suck. They will happen. I don't wanna have to deal with the drama that follows it though. Help me God. | ||||||||
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| I'm a... Bipolar Hypomanic. Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in a person's mood, energy, and ability to function. Different from the normal ups and downs that everyone goes through, the symptoms of bipolar disorder are severe. They can result in damaged relationships, poor job or school performance, and even suicide. But there is good news: bipolar disorder can be treated, and people with this illness can lead full and productive lives. More than 2 million American adults,1 or about 1 percent of the population age 18 and older in any given year,2 have bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder typically develops in late adolescence or early adulthood. However, some people have their first symptoms during childhood, and some develop them late in life. It is often not recognized as an illness, and people may suffer for years before it is properly diagnosed and treated. Like diabetes or heart disease, bipolar disorder is a long-term illness that must be carefully managed throughout a person's life. "Manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. It is an illness that is biological in its origins, yet one that feels psychological in the experience of it; an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering and, not infrequently, suicide." Bipolar I illness occurs in about 1% of the population and is equally prevalent in men and women. Women, however, are more likely to have depressive episodes. A patient who has mainly depressions and a few hypomanic episodes (the same symptoms as for mania but without social impairment) would receive a diagnosis of bipolar II, a form much more common in women. These illnesses typically start with a depressive episode. Thirty percent of patients who have bipolar I illness first experience symptoms as teenagers. In the usual course, episodes of illness are followed by periods of wellness (euthymia), at first punctuated by years but later settling into a pattern that�s often seasonal. The depression can become very chronic and unremitting; suicide is the most serious potential consequence. Despite new and successful treatments, about 12% of manic-depressives commit suicide, almost always during the depressive stage of the illness. and I suffer from depression. My doctor was going to prescribe meds but my father and I thought that it was in my best interest to go to more sessions before any prescriptions were filled out. Now I have to see someone in Cedar Grove about it. I kinda just went blank when the doctor said what was wrong. That's basically what happened today. Later days... Love Always, Hank | ||||||||
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| I'm about to die. I just ran for 33 minutes aimlessly, just running.The reason for my running was so that I didn't have to go to practice tomorrow because Samara invited me over for dinner again, and I absolutely love her family. You heard me Sam...I LOVE YOUR FAMILY!!! I have no idea what we're eating but I have a feeling that it will come from Villa Victoria again, which I have no problem with. So anyway I took the most random route I could think of so here it is: Started on Floyd, ran to Newman, ran down Newman to Hamilton, across to Claremont, down to Cumberland, to Linden, to Derwent, back up Claremont, back to Cumberland, to Newman, up Newman, across Hamilton, up Claremont to Floyd again, up Newman AGAIN to Otsego, to Linden, up to Elmwood, to Claremont and back down to my house. Pretty confusing huh? I know I'm confused too. Anyway I just took the coldest shower I've ever taken. Now I'll probably watch Hackers because I went to Blockbuster before looking for Spiderman 2 but they only had a defective one. Oh well...there's always next week. I only have 2 more paychecks that I owe my dad, and his car should be out of the shop by Tuesday, then my sister's goes in. Ra ra ra!!! Later days. Out... Love Always, ~Spydurrboi~ | ||||||||||
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| Easy day at work...although my legs are still killing me from Cross Country. Umm yeah, so I collected garbage and drove around in a cart non-stop all day from 8:30 to 3:00. As it did every day this week, it didn't start pouring until the day was over. It started right as I was coming in, and it didn't quit for 20 minutes. Richie showed me his new engine that he got in his Civic. It's fucking awesome because he's tweakin the shit out of it so he can race at the track. Oh yeah! There's a possibility that my dad is going to buy me a car. It's a 1989 Corolla but Corolla's are the shit and they last forever. Jay from Henry's is gonna sell it to me for $1000. I'm test driving it tomorrow, if I ever wake up. Samura's coming over at 12 since she works UBER late. That's right Sam...I said uber...CAPITALIZED! Hahahaha! Can't wait to watch more movies till like 3 in the morning. That's it for now, I'm going to eat the pizza I got from Sam's pizzeria, which has the best pizza in the ENTIRE world. Everyone there loves me...when I walked in before the pizza maker who I don't know his name was all like "Hey it's Roo! You're alright buddy!" and I said "I know". All Sam's "fellow" workers were snickering to her, thinking that I didn't know about it. Oh...I knew about it. Muhahaha! Peace doggs. Out... "Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections." "Don`t waste your time trying to find the perfect girl, because if she`s truely perfect, she'll find you"....and she did!!!" "When you smiled, you had my undying attention when you laughed, you had me laughing with you, when you cried you had my urge to hold you tight, when you kissed me, you had my heart forever." | ||||||||||
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| OK so I read this comment in my friend Teesha's journal. Seems like she's trying to get Teesh on her side. I find it incredibly hard to believe that she said "As much as it hurts me to see him gone, it hurts me to see you hurt." That is the biggest load of bull I've ever heard. "Because I knew you guys had a "thing" and I accepted that". HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! She accepted that. I recall a journal entry saying "absolutely HIDEOUS, like, I can't even look at the picture anymore" "But now, this Sam girl, his new girlfriend, apparently hates me". She hates you because of what you said about her. "But I'm nothing like that, probably the opposite." HA! Enough said. "What he did was wrong, as what he's doing is wrong. But he'll never understand that." What exactly did I do that was so wrong? Was trying to make myself happy so wrong? Is it the fact that you are not over me? WHAT IS IT???? "So, basically, if you ever need to talk to anyone, I'll always be here. I hope to get to know you, because honestly, I feel bad/responsible for all the crap that's happened." HAHAHAHAHAHA!! Talk about a change of mind.... Whatever...and don't talk to my sister online either. | ||||||||
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| "If you hate me so much, then forget it. God." I recall being told she hated me. But why did she call me if sheu said she never wanted to speak to me again? I mean, it occured to me that when someone says that, they don't call the person up the next day. It had me so confused and angry especially when she hung up the phone after I did pick up. Anyway.... I just got home from the mall playing DDR and getting a new Nintendo wristband from Hot Topic. My throat is so dry because it was hot as hell in the arcade. Boo's coming over tonight to watch either Office Space or something else. We'll see when she gets here because she works till 10. Out.... Love Always, ~Zerokewl~ | ||||||||||
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| The reason that I love you is easier done than said But unfortunately it can't be done...not now anyway... This one's for you Teesh. A TRUE Love I do not know what I would do If for a minute I could not have you When you are talking to me In a way so lovingly I'm so happy that I finally found Somebody who makes my heart pound Someone who I can actually trust Who is more for love and not for lust Who doesn't treat me like it's my fault You say you make a killer malt So let's snuggle together forever I'll always love you, forget you never It all started with one word "Hey" That was all you had to say To capture my heart and make me yours You opened up a magical door You understand the the reason why I do the things that make me cry If there was ever a time when we could meet I'd probably ask you to marry me I truly think that we're connected Now I don't feel so rejected The reason that I am so happy Is because you're the one who makes me me. The reason that I love you is because you love me back You're all I need, my love, my Valentine. I love you always. | ||||||||||
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| I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away | ||||||||||
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| If there were no words No way to speak I would still hear you If there were no tears No way to feel inside I'd still feel for you And even if the sun refuse to shine Even if romance ran out of rhyme You would still have my heart Until the end of time You're all i need My love, my valentine All of my life I have been waiting for All you give to me You've opened my eyes And showed me how to love unselfishly I've dreamed of this a thousand times before In my dreams i couldnt love you more I will give you my heart Until the end of time You're all i need My love, my valentine La da da Da da da da And even if the sun refuse to shine Even if romance ran out of rhyme You would still have my heart Until the end of time Cuz all i need Is you, my valentine You're all i need My love, my valentine | ||||||||||
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| What is it that cause people not to trust you? Maybe it's that you smoked pot once in your life, and that was that. Maybe it's that you were so upset that you punched the shit out of anything you can find and made your knuckles bleed, or burnt your arm with a cigarette. Or MAYBE it's that you are a liar even though YOU know you're not. You would not believe how many people in the world have it worse than me, and the people that truly love them do their best to help them out. Even though many times they fail in correcting the person, there are times when they are able to get through to them, and they are cured for good. Take me for instance, I went to therapy for 3 weeks and got absolutely NOTHING out of it except more pain and anguish. I was diagnosed with depression. I don't know if it's that but I do know I am bipolar, after taking 5 online tests. There was a time a few months back when I did one of the dumbest things I've ever done in my life. And IT'S WORSE THAN SMOKING POT. ODing on medication and alcohol fucked me up completely. What's sad about it is that SHE stayed with me after that. After SHE found out that I cut myself, she stayed with me. For what reason I will never know. But for something as small as TRYING pot, I don't think it's worth leaving someone for something that small compared to ODing. Unfortunately I can't take back any of it, and I would do it in a split second if I could. So she thinks that next week we'll be back together making out. Heheheh. Ummm....sorry hun but I don't think so. If somebody truely loved me they would stay with me after something like that. Face it you don't love me, it's a load of shit. What kind of relationship consists of the people seeing each other 1 time a week every other week. That's even worse than a long distance relationship. And what kind of relationship has the parents not knowing about it for 5 straight months. I'll tell you one thing, something like this is NOT a relationship. I don't think a relationship should require one to SNEAK out of their house for 5 minutes for a quick make out session. 5 MINUTES A DAY!!! = NOT A RELATIONSHIP!!!!!!! I don't care if I'm being a jerk, all that I say is true and none of you can tell me I'm wrong, because I'm not. It is done. Over and out.... In the words of Amy Smart: "Nothing ever gets better" Love Always, ~Zerokewl~ End of line................... "Kill you" huh.....Thanks a lot | ||||||||||
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| Holy Shit! Ozzfest was fucking awesome!!! The show started at 9:30, but we got there around 10:50. We tailgated in the parking lot until 2. Unfortunately I missed a lot of the bands I wanted to see at the second stage, like Lacuna Coil, Atreyu, Bleeding Through, Every Time I Die, and Magna-Fi. They started earlier than was originally scheduled.We got to see Hatebreed and Slipknot, who were both pretty good. We walked around PNCBAC for a while, and saw many strange characters, this one girl had like 2 spikes coming out of her face, one from below her lips and one above. She was wearing the freakiest outfit too. But I wasn't really surprised. There was a body paintnig booth, and this guy on the microphone was like "Was there ever a time when you were walking down the street and you said to yourself Man I wish I could get my titties painted. Well here's your chance" Then there was this booth where you kick a soccerball at a guys head to win a prize. He's like "All you stupid mother fuckers out there, get over here and kick a fucking soccer ball at this fucking assholes head!" It was hilarious. So it was time for the show to start on the main stage. First up was Black Label Society. they were alright but were only on for like a half hour. Next came Dimmu Borgir, and I must say they were a lot better than I thought they would be. This guy across from me was going insane. He was swinging his arms around and kicking air. I almost got whacked in the head. Oh....I was scared. These two girls arrived after Dimmu got off, and they were the ones that got me started as far as going crazy. One of them was about 22 and her birthday was the day before mine. It was quite wierd actually. The funny thing is she was hitting on me and wanted to have me take a picture with her, so I did just to get her off my back. As I was rockin my head back and forth, she would keep bumping into me just to start a conversation or something....I was concentrating on playing the air drumms and guitar. Argh! Slayer was 3rd on stage, and they were just incredible. I didn't like Slayer until today, and now I want to go out and buy their CD. I almost had an orgasm when Judas Priest performed. The only thing that sucked was that the guy in back of me was going crazy too and he spilled his fucking beer on my back, the fucking asshole. It seemed that Priest was playing forever, and it seemed that they owned the show. The real shit began when none other than the old school Black Sabbath came out. I almost had a heart attack when I heard Ozzy doing his trademark laugh. It was the second best of the night, and it was also at the time when I couldn't hold myself up anymore, so I had to sit down. Of course once again my little friend across from me did his headbanging dance and nearly knocked out the girl next to me. He actually DID his her but not that hard. So she asked me to move over, and of course I did. The show ended with a shitload of confetti. This had to be by far the greatest experience of my life, not to mention most tiring. While I was there I bought a new earring of a skull that I can't put in for another 4 weeks. Argh! I also bought a t-shirt and a visor that says Fuck You on it. My mom didn't take it too well when she saw it. Actually, she said she was going to burn it. So I have to hide it. Now I'm here typing this entry so uh yeah...My ears are still ringing! Alright, so while I was at the concert, in between performances, I was collecting a lot of my thoughts about myself. I said yesterday that I can't change anything that I did in the past that I regret, but I CAN change myself, thanks to a friend of mine. It's going to take a lot of effort, but I WILL do it. And I realized that having friends is one thing that makes me who I am, and I don't want to lose them. With the help of all of you just being there for me, I'm sure I'll be able to do this without many problems. So anyway....until we meet again, out... Love Always, ~Hank Percevault~ | ||||||
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| For the first time in my life I actually truly cried. I mean TRULY cried. I was watching The Butterfly Effect and I lost control over my emotions. I felt like the concept of the movie related to me, because I can't change anything I've done in the past that I regret. The memories that I have lived have been good and bad, each with their own outcome, also positive and negative. Sometimes I wonder if some of the choices I made in the past would make me turn out differently if I didn't make them, and cause me to be a happier person, instead of the highly emotional guy I have become. To be honest, I HATE the person I have become. I don't want anyone, ANYONE to tell me I'm a sweetie and whatnot, because I'm not. There are people I have met that make me happy, and those who I've met who don't directly negate me, but other surrounding people that make me the emotional "child" that I am now. I'm wondering if those people should just forget about me and move on, or if I should live it through a little longer, just to see what will become of it. It makes me cry to know that I can't take away the things I have done to hurt certain people, and I wish I DID have the power to do so. I'm sorry everyone, but for some of you there is just no place for Hank Percevault in your lives. Just forget about me and let me find my way. Forget Always, ~Zerokewl~ End of Line............................... | ||||||||
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| Ugghhhhhh...I'm so friggin tired. I just woke up from a 4 hour nap and my eyes are burning because I forgot to take out my contacts. I looked in the mirror and my eyes were almost completely red. Ok, so there is one thing that I did today that I want to appologize for. I don't want to be considered a stalker, because I was just messing around. Yeah....so anyway, things are better now and I still feel like shit because it's stuffy as hell in my house. My morning was so god damn slow. The rain prevented any work which in a way was a good thing, except for the fact that NOT doing anything made the day feel like it was 10 hours long. From 6 to 10:30 I sat in the Greens house playing Rummy with my Spanish friends. I almost died it was so long. Anyway...that's my update. I'll speak again soon. Out... Love Always, ~Zerokewl~ | ||||||||||
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| I don't really know what to talk about right now, but I'm really bored so I'll just type about, well, me. I was reading a friend of mine's journal who none of you know I'm sure because I barely know him, and it seemed like he's having a miserable life. I was looking at his entries, and entry after entry was the same negative content about horrible things that are currently going on in his life. And then...I had an revelation. My life has gotten SO much better over the past few months. Even though my relationship with my parents is still a little shaky, and I say things a lot that I don't mean, I thank God, that's right, I thank God for them. There has been so much stuff I have learned from my dad alone, and I'm grateful for it. I looked back on the terrible things I had done about 3-4 months ago. Let's recap some of them. 1. First and foremost the worst thing I have ever done....I OD'd on St. John's Wort with quite a bit of alcohol. I don't know why I did it, I just did. And what makes it even worse is that I learned that the medication is bad for the liver, so is alcohol. Bad combination. The thing I regret most about this is that I hurt Cristina when I did it, and that hurts me even more, so I learned from that huge mistake. I've been 100 times better ever since. 2. I don't want anyone to think I'm fucked up, because I'm not. There was a time a while ago when I cut myself. Every time I did it I cried, and this is the second biggest regret of my life. After a week, I looked at the scars, hoping that they would eventually heal. They never did, and now I have to live the rest of my life with them. I'm FINISHED with that so don't worry. 3. Not really that big of a deal, and everybody does it at least once in their life. I tried pot, yes, I'm willing to admit it. Fortunately nothing happened, so I realized there's really no point in it. I'm sorry I didn't tell Cristina but some things are better off left untold. I just wanted to come clean. 4. I said so many things to so many people that at the time seemed appropriate, but I figured out I said those things because of my own insecurities. For those of you who were victims of my harsh words, I want to apologize to each and every one of you. I tried going to therapy but I'm going to be honest when I say it didn't really help at all. It basically made things worse by bringing back the stated things above, and I couldn't handle it, so I'm pretty much doing better without it. I don't really feel like bringing anything more up, because there are just countless amounts of mishaps, and I'm sure you don't want to read my entire life story. I actually didn't mean for this entry to be this long, but I have nothing else to talk about right now, and I wanted to get certain things straight with certain people. Cristina, you are by far the most important person in my life. You are what keeps me....me. I love you so much, and don't EVER think differently. I don't know what I would do if there was ever a time when I hurt you again, and I PROMISE, I never will. Just remember, I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I'm with you. You ARE my life. That is all my friends. I just needed to get that off my chest. End of line.... Love Always, ~Hank Percevault~ | ||||||||||
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| What an incredible week. Full of DDR, walking, and girls. I didn't really go for the kill on any girls because my heart belongs to somebody else (you know who you are). I must say I am tired as hell, considering I walked over 15 miles throughout the entire week. Here's how it went down: Saturday-First day down. We left at around 6:30 or something, I can't remember. We got there around 8 or 9, and we had to wait until 2 o'clock to get our beach house because the owners had to clean it out. Compared to last year, this place was about twice the size of the other one. Aight...so anyway, me and Vivek decided to walk to Bay Village to buy some sunglasses and he also bought a Spiderman boogie board. I would have to but I already had one. What was sad was that he didn't know how to boogie board XD. Hurr Hurr! So we went to the beach and boogie boarded for about 20 minutes and came out. The water was pretty cold but whatever. V wiped out about 50 times....it was hilarious! Sunday-Woke up at about 8:45 and got ready to go to the watermark, if you want to call it that. It's 6 slides and a lazy river. Oh well. They have these high powered water guns that you can squirt the other side with while they're waiting to go down the slide. It's fun to shoot the little kids who don't expect it. Oh yeah! And there was this guy in a Speedo (we named him Speedo Man). We just kept getting him every single time he walked by. I had quite a good time with that. There this huge-ass water bucket that fills up with water and spills over into the lazy river. I stood on the bridge that it spills over. Some of the people didn't know that the water is very heavy when it falls on you, so 5 old guys went under and their pants fell down so their dirty asscracks were showing. Today was the 3rd time in 5 days that I saw Spiderman 2, although I was disappointed because the speaker system sucked and the theater was about 100 yards long so there was an echo. Went to Fantasy Island afterwards and I played DDR while V wasted his money trying to win the jackpot on Monopoly. I won about 10 stuffed animals in the crane game since I rule. My mom came to pick us up, and when I got into the car she tells me that my aunt, uncle and 3 cousins were making an unexpected trip down just to go to Fantasy Island. This was at 3 that she told me. Well....they show up at 4. My cousin Garrett, who has ADD, starts running back and forth around the house, jumping off the couch and running into the refrigerator. They just show up and eat all OUR food, and drink OUR beverages. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!! They ate all MY roast beef!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, we watched the fireworks from the amusement park. They were actually really good. Monday-Woke up later....this time at 11. Instead of doing something in the village, we decided to beach it for the day. The water was cold again but we still went in. I bought a new Spiderman hat that's baby blue. Oh Hell Yeah!!! I played DDR and attracted a lot of girls, and yes I got the applause I was hoping for. Heheh. Tuesday-Went to the beach for about 45 minutes only. The water was 62 degrees so I just said F*** that. The bad thing about today was that Barnes decided to show up randomly, he didn't even knock on the door. He just walked in being the jerk that he is. He's like "Let's go for a ride to the Sunglass Menagerie to see my secret crush. He must have drove by that place about 4 times in 5 minutes. I don't care if the kid had a Mustang, he has ADD and that can really get in the way. He drove through a fucking stop sign for god sakes! I bought a black necklace with some kind of funky symbol on it. It's rufous as all hell. Hopefully I won't stab myself in the neck while I'm sleeping. We saw Steve today on our way back from Fantasy Island. V and I got wasted with my sisters boyfriend Frank while playing circle of death. It was riveting. All I remember was talking about anything and everything really really fast. We were up till 2:30 talking about meaningless bullshit. Wednesday-Another semi-late start at 10:30. Today was a mini-golfing day. Probably the fastest game I've ever played in my entire life. Only took a half hour. I beat V by 4 strokes because I'm GOD. We went home to get our shit together before going over to Steve's beach. The water over there was soooooo warm, but there were baby jellyfish everywhere. And guess who decided to show up at OUR beach out of nowhere? You guessed it....BARNES!!! The little shithead. Went home and ate dinner, and went back over to you know where, and I played you know what....This night was the best because girls were actually talking to me. Only problem was the eardrum rupturing screaming of HANKY PANKY!!! I hate that. They were all pretty hot, and one of them was really interested in me because she kept looking over at me and talking. She looked like she was 18 but she was really 15. She was almost taller than me. Like I said before, I did NOT make any moves this entire week because that's just the type of guy I am, even though you may not think that. Thursday-11:30. I woke up to the sound of my OTHER aunt and uncle coming down to visit. We stayed in most of the day and just watched Fresh Prince and Saved by the Bell. I went to the supermarket to pick up a 12 pack of soda and this girl walks up to me and asks if she can borrow a dollar. Me being the nice guy that I am gave it to her. As I'm reaching for my dollar she quickly yells "You're hot!!" I wasn't sure that she said THAT until after when V told me that she DID say it. She was also very cute looking but you know....2 hours later I take a walk over to Bay Village to see if there is something that I needed to get. On the way back I decided to play 2 quick games of DDR, and what do you know? The same girl from the supermarket is on the machine next to me. She walks over and gives me my dollar back, which I was surprised because girls usually never pay back money...no offense to those of you that do. I did the unthinkable today! I got my ear pierced!!! At first I thought it was going to hurt like a mother fucker but I didn't realize she had done it until she told me it was over. That was a lot easier than I thought....and it only cost me 10 bucks. Came home and ate again, and went back to Bay Village....AGAIN! Only this time I got Cristina a little something. Unfortunately I didn’t have enough money to buy my Bootylicious hat so murrrrrrr..... That's it for today. Friday-Hmmm....it's pretty sad that I can't remember what happened yesterday. Heheh! Ummmm....well it was my last day for one thing. Oh yeah!! I got fudge for some people. I almost dies looking at all the fudge. There were endless blocks of it on the wall. I GOT MAH BOOTYLICIOUS VISOR AND I LOOK SEXAH AS HELL IN IT!! There was another girl hitting on me that night. She kept walking over by me as I watched others play DDR. And she kept looking at me. What can I say? I'm a very good looking guy. I played for the last time this week. For the first time in my life I passed the hardest song on the game on Standard with a C. MAX 300! I swear to God I almost had a heart attack and my legs were dead as hell. When I got off, all these girls AND adults were just looking at me with a blank stare. I almost collapsed. I got a bigger applause for that song since basically the whole song is all 1/4 beats. Arggghhhh! Well that was my week. I must have spent about 30 dollars on DDR alone. That's 60 songs! That's a lot of "dancing". And I probably walked over 20 miles back and forth between Bay Village and my house. To be honest, I'm feeling very tired. Unfortunately I have to work on Monday....at least it's only until 12. Thanks to those of you who actually took the time to read this. | ||||||||||
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| _______Your Life_______ [x] they call me: Hank, Pank, Angry Pank [x] sex: female minus the fe [x] my first breath of air: May 29, 1987, dunno wut time [x] status: hehe [x] best friends: Vivek, Stina _______Rewind_______ [x] most memorable memory: My first time playing DDR [x] worst?: I found out my little cousin might die from a disease she has [x] first word uttered?: dada [x] first best friend ever!?: Sean _______Love?_______ [x] love is: full of bipolarness [x] first love: blah [x] love or lust?: love [x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time: no idea, i only have one love [x] when love hurts, you: cry and punch my wall [x] true or false: all you need is love: true [x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: yes! [x] are you in love right now?: hell yeah! [x] how many times have you been in love?: only once _______Opposite Sex_______ [x] turn ons: her smile, her smell, her attitude, her love [x] do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: absolutely not [x] what kinda hair style?: i like it straightened [x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: love me [x] where do you go to meet new people?: mall, beach [x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers?: nah _______Picky Picky_______ [x] dog or cat: dog [x] short or long hair: long [x] sunshine or rain: rain [x] moon or sun: moon [x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend [x] summer or winter: summer [x] written letters or e-mails: written letters [x] play station or nintendo: playstation [x] car or motorcycle: car [x] house party or club: house party [x] sing or dance: i can't do either _______Lately_______ [x] how are you today? sick...i have a 102.2 temp [x] what pants are you wearing right now? shorts [x] what shirt are you wearing right now? Rock is dead...long live paper and scissors [x] what does your hair look like at the moment? i don't have much hair so yeah [x] what song are u listening to right now? Kevin Lyttle - Turn Me On [x] how is the weather right now? Too hot for me...I'm roastin' [x] last person you talked to on the phone? Cristina [x] last dream you can remember? i have alzheimers [x] who are you talking to right now? this survey [x] what time is it? 7:27 _______More About YOU!_______ [x] what are the last four digits of your cell phone number? 3253 [x] if u were a crayon, what color would you be? black [x] have you ever almost died? yeah [x] have u ever won any special award? not so much [x] have you ever had a surprise party? no [x] what's the stupidest thing u have ever done? forget everything [x] how many kids do you want to have? 6 or 7 [x] son's name? David [x] daughter's name? Cristina [x] shampoo? it's all about the suave [x] what are you most scared of? being alone [x] how many TV's do you have in your house? 4 [x] do you have your own TV? sorta [x] have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? never [x] who do you dream about? i can't remember my dreams [x] who do you tell your dreams to? nobody [x] is cheerleading a sport? no way [x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop? 214 _______You And Love_______ [x] do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? hmmmm [x] where would you like to go on your honeymoon? Bahamas [x] what do you like most about your lover? she loves me [x] do you find yourself attractive? nopers [x] do others find you attractive? nopers ( WHAT ) -;- is your first name? didn't answer this already? -;- are your nickname(s)? see top of page! -;- are you currently wearing? OMFG! -;- jewelry are you currently wearing? none -;- is on your computer desk? computer, mouse, keyboard, cds, printer, books. -;- is the color walls of your room? maroon! -;- is currently on your desktop? a swirling vortex that i designed -;- is your favorite subject? graphics -;- is your favorite food? chinese/popeye's -;- beverage? coke -;- is currently in your cd player? sugarcult -;- was the last website you went to? livejournal.com -;- did you last eat? fettucini alfredo mmmmmm -;- drink? ginger ale for my throat -;- listen to? Simple Plan - Addicted -;- write? ????? -;- turn on? computer -;- turn off? speakers -;- read? gee i wonder -;- watch? Grind -;- fix? my attitude -;- purchase? can't remember -;- say outloud? shut the fuck up! -;- think about? rainbows -;- crave? i don't feel so good right now.... -;- talk about? music -;- makes you happy? Cristina, feeling better? -;- sad? everything -;- depressed? always -;- tired? sorta -;- do you do for excercise? im too lazy for that -;- is your most common overused phrase online? ........... | ||||||||
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