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[17 Jul 2005|04:55pm]
What is your Phantom of the Opera picture? by smootie4eva
Name.....
Favorite color.....
How Old are you.....
Your picture is.....
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Would the Phantom fall for you? by ThePhantress
Your name?
Age?
Favorite color?
Mysterious or Out Going?
The Phantom thinks you are...beautiful, talented, and sexy
Christine wants to...be friends with you
You will...kill Christine and keep the Phantom for yourself
You will die from...the Phantom's magical lasso during some kinky sexcapade
Your own Phantom pic:
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Which Phantom Icon are you? by LilyPhantom
What is your name?
What is your age?
Are you emotional? (yes or no)
Your Christine 3 Phantom icon is...
Your Christine 3 Raol (AH!! YUCK!) icon is...
your random phantom goodness icon is...
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your phantom icon by packrat03
your 1st name
your age
your faveorite song
who would you pick
your icon....
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Congratulations! You could give the Phantom a run
for his money in the obsession department! You
are over the top obsessed knowing all there is
to know!! Be proud of your obsession. After
all, obsession is just flattery to the extreme!
So show off your phantom loving status, cause
your impressive obsession makes you a true
phantom Phan!!!



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PHAN!
You are a true phan!! You're completely obsessed
with POTO ... good for you! You can quote any
line from any song in a few different languages
on command and you can turn any conversation
around to POTO.



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What Icons are for you?(Thank you for making this Meme #2!!) by ladyallie
Username
Favourite Colour
Sex
Your Love icon is...
Your Sad Icon is...
Your Happy Icon is...
Your Angry Icon is...
Your Food Icon is...
Your Animal Icon is...
Your Random Icon is...
Your Cartoon Icon is...
Your Sexy Icon is...
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what cool harry potter character icons are you?(great icons) by sam55lv
name
age
favorite color
Harry Potter icon
Ron Weasley icon
Hermione Granger icon
Draco Malfoy icon
Random hp icon
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What Icons show How Your life is?(Great Icons) by razorblade--romance
Username
Age
Gender
Favorite Animal
Your Hate Icon
Your Sexy Icon
Your Death Icon
Your Happy Icon
Your Animal Icon
Your Stupid Icon
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ICONS ICONS ICONS Color Quiz (RAINBOW AND BEAUTIFUL) by x0_summer
Name/NickName
Fav Color!
Pink
Red
Orange
Yellow
Green
Blue
Purple
Rainbow
Black/White
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Your Sex Icon by xo wildxfire ox
Username
Girl/Boy
Your Sex Icon
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What Are You Most Likely to Utter During Sex

by UMAJohnnie
Name
Sexuality
Age
Most Likely to Say"I'm covered in BEES!"

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Which My chemical romance Icon are you(lots of icons!!) by HannahBear
Name
Favorite MCR song
Which one
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What My Chemical Romance Icon Are You? by i_brody_i
Name/Username
Age
Birthday
Your Icon
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[20 Jun 2005|03:29pm]
[ mood | productive ]
[ music | Foo Fighters- "Darling Nikky" ]

so...um. nothing real new. last thursday i ended up getting paid at my volunteer job. what had happened was i filled in all day for this chick that was out and the director said that because i acted as a substitute teacher,she was going to pay me as one. i tried to not let her give it to me because then i wouldn't really be volunteering. she said that shed say that i volunteered no matter what. so i got thirty bucks. nice. and she told me three more days she wants me to do that again.

went to the mall with kitty lauren and camden. he ended up crying practically the entire time. little butt. mon, you didnt miss much...oh wait...except for ya know LAUREN!!! 's cool. i wuvvles my lil lauren and her big brainness. okay i go now.

bye.

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"I need go potty." [14 Jun 2005|10:05pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Black Eyed Peas- "Don't Phunk With My Heart" ]

Yes, today was my first day back at Kids' Day Out. 't was fun for the most part. i mean, it was the usual kid stuff. they ended up getting another teacher for the toddler room, so i was back with the 3 year olds. they had to new teachers in there. they were...um...whiney. "this isnt how we did it at the other school i taught at." " at the other school i taught at the kids more independent." "at the other school i taught at we got paid more" when the one chick said that, i told them i was volunteering. they were amazed. i told them the volunteering would look pimp ass on college resumes. then i felt/still fell bad about saying ass. eh. its not like any of the kids heard me. they were all unconscious.

hmm...i dont think i have any more news. oh. justin also started his volunteer job at the animal shelter. mom and i are making him grow his hair out. justin's so cool. hes a pimp yo.

out.

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[10 Jun 2005|12:53pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]
[ music | Godhead- "Penetrate" ]

Okay. So...um...had the weirdest dream last night. I mean seriously.

Okay. um...not quite sure where the beginning is. its all a blur in my head. i know that there was like this mountain and i was climbing it trying to run from someone. i believe monica was with me. it the entire time i was afraid of falling. i mean we were on a flucking mountain. so then we get to the highest part and it was uber pretty. someone had like literally done landscaping up there. i have no idea how they got that grass to grow in such a high altitude! ah haha! yes, funny! YES! okay, so anyways, there was also these three li'l lakes. very very pretty. but then i notice that im no longer on ground. im on this weird thing thats sorta like a slide. im like, "Yo mon! we need to see where this goes yo!" and shes all like "Hells no!" so i end up going down it myself. soon i get to this one part that is like this covered slide, but its like made out of brass and goes like into the mountain. and someones calling to me from inside. and i dont know from whence exactly i draw this conclusion, but immediately i assume that its the phantom of the opera. but i dont go down. im like, "Hells no!" see, although i know that im totally in love with the phantom of the opera (cause all the cool people are) i also know that im no christine. im not going down some random ass slide just because some guy is calling me to it. im not a total idiot. and i tell the creepy voice that. i said something about not wanting to end up in the torture chamber and about being scared (cause ya know the poto did have a torture chamber) so i tell him that he needs to come up here and like go down with me (cause i figure that hes not going to try to kill me just to kill himself in the process) then i realize that thats a silly idea because he could just come up and kill me then. so i tell him not to come up. then im like, "well, hes obviously the one that did the whole random lakes thing on top of the mountain so maybe hes nice?" i dont know where i get me random conclusions. so i tell him to come up and he does. but hes most certainly not the poto that i was expecting. instead of being in this late thirties/ early fourties, hes 22. and, his hair is longish and several different bright colors. and im all like PRETTY HAIR!!! OOOO!!!, but on the inside. so we go down the slide and into a house. the house is surprisingly not in the mountain. and where like talking or something and then raoul comes in with all these brutes to....o wait! i forgot to tell you! erik (poto) had ya know the mask and everything, was dressed in like a t-shirt, jeans, blazer, and a WHITE FEDORA HAT!!! it looked so hott with his rainbow hair. seriously...so anyways. the brutes and raoul were obviously coming to get me and do whatever to erik. so i try to run and i climb out of this window and start trying to get away. then i realize that theres no where for me to go. so i just sorta stand there and wait to get gotten but they dont. instead they take erik and like rip off his mask and hat. why they took off the hat im not sure. then this one big guy starts chasing me. then he threatens to RAPE ME WITH ONE OF HIS TOES! not even the big one either. the middle one. how fucked up is that?! so i think to start yelling for raoul to help me because then not only will he like totally club the guy for doing that, itll also give erik and i a chance to get away. so i try to find eriks hat and mask, but only find the hat (which is all that was really needed cause it totally made the outfit). but, because i had yelled out for raoul to come help me, he thinks that ive betrayed him. so he starts taking off and im right behind him. eventually i give him the hat and he gives me this sad look. i tell him i love him. he doesnt believe me.

okay. now theres more to the dream. but i cant quite be sure in what order these events happened, so ill just guess.

okay so now im like in a car. driving. yes me driving a car. and im doing it horribly. im like all on the other side of the road and just sucking generally. and for some the of the time, the steering wheel is where the passenger seat is...odd...then at somepoint im on a motorcycle. im not sure what happended to the car, but i think that it turned in to the motorcycle. so im like going home after school. and these girls want to come into my house. they were my friends, but im all like no my mom doesnt want me to bring anyone else in or something. odd again, because i have no idea who these people were just that in my dream they were my friends. so we like go outside. o yeah, and my house sucks ass. it was like where it is in real life but like literally a 1/4 of the size and just overall nasty. odd again. and theres like these statues in my backyard of horses. but they can sorta move on their own because their sorta alive.

okay so now ive somehow been gotten by the poto again. but its like not the same guy and not the same place. its the gerard butler poto, and where still on a mountain but like the house is on the side of it and were in some part that is filled with water. now when i say that the house was on the side of the mountain this is what i mean:
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twas very odd. so the house was like filled with water for the most part. kay. and we were in the water. all of the sudden we realize that the wall on the slope part of the mountain was about to open up letting all the water out and thus we would plumit to our doom. now why he decided that it would be a good idea to put two big ass doors on that wall knowing this would happen, i dont know. so im trying to get away from him (by the way im totally afraid of him for some reason) and trying not to die at the same time. so eventually i dont die and i see him sorta standing somewhere and i think "hmm. just maybe..." then. right as im thinking i could possibly start to like him...

...i just to something else in my dream. now im like at a hotel. theres like this competetion going on and somehow i got entered into it. i here the judges talk about me as i walk by. they say something about how im supposed to be this great singer. im all like wtf? who the hell said that? i immediately assume that its the poto and some how it was all part of his plan to find me and wisk me away. so, im fine. apparently what i didnt know was that his planned involved killing all the girls in the competetion except me. he would drug me and people would just assume that i was dead. so while all the bodies were being placed into these rather nifty wooded coffins in the back of this huge wagon thing, he would kidnap me. how sweet ::sarcasmsarcasm:: but some how people discover his plan and stab him and as they do he sorta laughs and evil laugh and says that he has already won. of course now he has no facial deformites, hair slightly lighter than my natural color and way longer than mine, and hes wearing black pants and a frilly white shirt. im assuming he was my dreams version of the poto played by julian sands, if any of yal have seen that one. very odd again. so hes dead. and i tell my parents all about it and go to show then his body. okay. so now his body is like the size of a dolls and naked and sitting upright on top of one of the coffins.

okay. so that was my dream...i liked it.

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[09 Jun 2005|09:31am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Taking Back Sunday- "Bonus Mosh pt. II" ]

--YOU & THE BASICS--
1. name: Rachel Brittany Escue
2.birthdate: 03/24/88
3.age: 17
4.eye color: blue
5.hair color: brown with blond highlights (which i need to get redone)
6. Nervous Habits? i do this sorta taping thing with my fingers
7. Are you double jointed? nope
8. Can you roll your tongue? yep
9. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? yeah, but only one of 'em
10. Can you blow spit bubbles? uh...people can do that?
11. Can you cross your eyes? yep
13. Tattoos? no yet
14. Piercings and where? ears
15. Screename: erikaicecube

--GET PHYSICAL--

1.type your name with your eyes closed. rachel
2.type your name with your elbow. rrrrrrrreeacxhgewlk ...i sorta got it in there...
3.with your toe. rachelk ....oh... so close
4.with your non-dominant hand only...turned around: what the fuck does that even mean...turned around...whore!
5.open a book and turn to page 8. what is the 7th word from the bottom? time
6. reach out with both arms. what do you touch first? screen
7.look and listen to the TV or Radio. whats on? er
8. If your NOT home alone sing this verse really loud and tell us if annyone says anything to you, "OOOH, shes sexy! work it work it owwww. la la la LAH" totally leaving this alone

--DO YOU--

1. eat spam or potted meat? not usually
2. type with one hand only? no
3. wear the same piece of jewelry everyday? what? dont wear jewelry much
4. twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl
5. usually approach your crush or keep it low? depends. everything is dependent on factors...like the fact that im a total pussy
6. have a mole anywhere on your face? yep...but i call them "freckles"
7. write with your right hand or left? right
8. cut up all of your meat, then eat, or cut each at one time? all meat cut now
9. carry more than 10 dollars with you on an average day? nope
10. have blue eyes? um...yeah
11. have a swimming pool? yeah
12. sing really well? im not kitty!
13. stay at the computer more than an hour at a time on average? hell yeah
14. wear thongs everyday? nope
15. like rock music? yep


--EITHER/OR/NEITHER--

1. rock or rap? rock
2. chinese or mexican? mexican
3. coke or pepsi? coke
4. straight or curly? straightigh curlyish
5. guy friends or girl friends? girl friends
7. ludacris or 50 cent? luda!
8. guitar or drums? oh god...just thinking about a guy playing either really gets me hott...
9. chocolate or vanilla? vanilla
11. mustard or ketchup? mustard
12. beach or mountains? beach
13. beef or chicken? beef!
14. me or you? me
15. boxers or briefs? boxers
16. panties or thongs? panties


--CURRENT--

1. clothes? grey sweatpants and a green shirt that i made last night/early this morning with kitty that says "they got the mustard out"
2. taste? milk
3.smell? god, i hope thats not me! j/k
5. hair style? just-got-my-ass-outta-bed-hair
6. music? the used
7. perfume/cologne? not currently
8. nail color? dark purple
9. hated song on the radio? dont really listen to that much
10.crush? nope

--CLOTHES--

1. Where do you shop: lane bryant and torrid
2. What do you usually wear: t-shirt and jeans
3. What kind of shoes do you wear: converse, dc, and my sandals
4. Do you wear a watch: nope
5. Color you never wear: orange
6. Color you wear at least once a week: blue
7. Something you wear everyday: a shirt and pants and underwear and something to hold my boobs up
8. Do you wear make up everyday: almost
9. Make up essential: my loose shiny powdery schtuff
10. Most cherished piece of clothing: my tank that i love
11.You wouldn't be caught dead wearing: a funking poncho!
12. Do you wear belts: occasionally
13. Do you wear hats: no
14. How many pairs of shoes do you have: donts feel like counting but i know its over 20...i dont like to get rid of things





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okay. so, my internet is finally working again. but, unfortunately for you, im tired. so, no really up date. good night.
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[01 Jun 2005|12:43pm]
[ mood | dorky ]
[ music | Franz Ferdinand- "Take Me Out" ]

what's a cross hair? i dont get it. im just a cross hair...? what is he?!!

okay. havent had much time to update 'cause my internet has been "on the fritz"...what is this "fritz"? how do you get on it? why do things keep getting on it? is there some way we can prevent things from magically jumping on top of harmless li'l fritzes? cement shoes? nailing things to the floor? iono...

went bowling last night with brandy and greg. 't was fun. we ended up bowling four games, the last one with bumpers. i still lost even with the bumpers. i suck.

went to the panda buffet today for candi's b-day. the waitress brought out this nifty thing with like these cool cut up oragnes and this biscuit/roll that had whipped cream and a candle. really cool.

it better rain today. i think im going to end up getting some quality rachel time at about 6-8:30 while the fam's all at church. antone who reads this and feels like dropping by, bring it!

out

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[29 May 2005|05:24pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Taking Back Sunday- "Bonus Mosh pt. II" ]

all you bitches and hoes and losers!!!

hi you! okay. just to get it out of the way, even though I have already told you people, but for the purposes of ...god, im wordy! okay. i. got. a. new. vibrator. I named him Mister. blue. 7 functions. waterproof. there you go.

were only a few days into summer and it has already been so great. lets see...went to graduation. it wasnt as sad as i thought it was going to be. no crying or nothing. went to elises house and brought the epop with me. just thought you should know, mitch is cute. he so is. totally. dont tell elise. she'll kill me. okay so i had fun there. buddy got wealwy big.

came home. took a nap. my dad ended up cooking out on the grill. he did it today to, and he's going to be doing it tomorrow. its nice to just hang out with the fam and it hamburgers and the like...it was just really pleasant.

elise's mommy said something to me about volunteering at the hospital where she works. i could like hang out with her and stuff. id really like to do it, but im already going to be doing the whole kids day out thing...but id really like to do it and it would look great on a college application. iono. i just dont want to over load myself over the summer. well see. ill think about it. who knows maybe i could just do it like once a week or something. iono.

okay, what else.um...iono.i think thats it. okay...byes!

wait! dreams! i had this weird dream last night. i was with this group of people and this weird witch chicka was trying to kill us. iono. i just remember i ended up making out with spike. oo hes nice! okay. now im really done.

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how does it feel to be one of the beautiful people...? [21 May 2005|10:52am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | ANGELA!!! ]

angela dont hate me
no matter what they say ill always love you
dont believe the authorities
angela believe in me

LA la LA la LA....let's run away, if only for a day...okay. done singing the song.

okay. lets go ahead and get this out of the way. jam. no. im sorry, but no. and i feel a lil bad, cause lately hes been following me around like a lost little puppy. and im sure that me not stopping the hand-holding is not helping. whatever. ask me if i care. i dont. im a bitch. hahaha.

okay. so, yesterday, mom didnt take me to the place she promised me she would. AAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i thought i would die. but shes taking me today, so okay. i say "so" and "okay" a lot. whatever.

SUMMER'S ALMOST HERE!!! ah i cant wait. 's gonna be so great. oh, and im going to get me pictures taken with renee scott. woot woot. i went to her website and all those pictures look so damn hott. im going to see if i can get a wall hanging of myself like the muscley black guy in white chicks.

i went to my dads softball game last night. the first thing i saw was a ...hey...saw is like was only backwords...did ya see? go back and look... okay so anyways...i saw a pretty black man on the other team. i dont mean "pretty black" as if we was extremely black but i was trying to say that he was pretty and black. i probably should have put a comma between the two words. anyways, when i saw him i thought holy crap were gonna get spanked. cause ya know he was black. we dont have any black guys on our team. :( but we ended up winning 20 to 3. so, that was cool.

hmm...anything else i need to cover...not that i can readily think of...

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uh huh... [14 May 2005|10:12am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Rob Thomas- "I Am an Illusion" ]

okay. wow, seems like i havent updated in forever.

i dont really have much to say.

I SAW MY KITTY!!!! we went down to tcby and had ice cream and pizza. twas delightful. i wuvvles my kitty.

went to boo boo's band banquet. whenever he was up there accepting something, i started screaming wildly. it wouldnt be as odd if the room was like completely silent or something. i saw jam there. we walked around and spoke. apparently mon thinks im a whore for holding hands with him and suchness. maybe i am. shell be strong.

i practically beat kristin in the back of the head with my precal book. odd story behind that. not saying it though.

okay then bye!

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THANK GOD!!! [09 May 2005|03:54pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Colin Hay- "I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You" ]

took the ap bio exam today. i studied all weekend for it. more than ive ever studied in my life, but because ive never really studied it wasnt that difficult to beat said record. so glad that shits over with. i like...i dont know. dont even want to talk about it.

i got my grade back on my research paper. for all that stages (which was the returning in of shit) i got my easy 100. for composition i got a 98. and for mechanics i got a fucking 105. comp and mech counts as two test grades. i kick ass.

ive got some stuff i wanna do, but i have to wait until summer cause i have like no time, especially this week. theres a couple stories i need to get to writing, but im just swamped from school for a while. i dont even have time to be doing this really cause i have to have a book read by tomorrow for the test. in fact, i must go.

good night!

consule my aching heart

Bananas! B-A-N-A-N-A-S! [05 May 2005|04:30pm]
[ music | Usher- "Caught Up" ]

'Cause I ain't no hollaback girl! I ain't no hollaback girl!

yeppers. that was fun. monday is ap bio test. and the shit is bananas! b-a-n-a-n-a-s! okay.

i made phototage! lil lauren cant get to deviant art from her computer cause of parental controls so...

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i feel like theres something im supposed to be doing. there probably is. whatever.

went to tcby today to get ice cream. got parfait. saw mon. 't was fun.

okay then. byes.

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What goes around, comes around. what goes up, must come down... [03 May 2005|04:45pm]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | Alicia Keys- "Karma" ]

So, Mon and I had a disagreement, but we're better now. If you wish to see more on said agreement, i suggest you go take a gander at her journal.

http://www.fanfiction.net/~xxblueruinxx

go there.

okay. um...im a co-chairman sunshine thingy for bartlett ambassadors...apparently people on the ba committee said something about me having a negative attitude. fuckers.

well, ill be off.

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[30 Apr 2005|08:49am]
Okay. so, my brain is having trouble picking an emotion right now...im in between pissed, depressed, and dissapointed. for some reason right now im mostly pissed.

i really really need to talk to monica, but i cant talk to her on the phone. its not that im grounded, i just can't. maybe ill catch her sometime today online. i hope i catch her.

i took an ap bio practice exam and got a four (out of five). that makes me happy...i guess. i wrote a short story. im trying to put it on fanfiction.net, but after you sign up theres a three day waiting period before youre allowed to post anything. i can put it up there tonight.

i want school to be over. now. i want it to be summer. i want to be done.
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Kill me now [26 Apr 2005|08:24pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | Muse- "Unintended" ]

I just wrote a very depressing essay. yeppers. not pleasant. now im all depressed.

you know when you get so stressed out that you just assume slit your wrists instead of dealing with everything. damn.

ap bio test is coming up and i am so not prepared. im gonna suck monkey ass on it. i took a practice one today, and i couldn't even do one of the four essays. i dont want to think about college. i dont want to go to college.

you ever think the majority of your life that youre a good person but all of the sudden over a period of a few months evidence starts accumulating that shows otherwise? just me then? thats what I thought.

I'm totally lazy. im selfish. im inconsiderate. im unmotivated. i dont take responsibilty for things. im fearful. i think i might also be a little self-defeating...not to mention the fact that my actually self-esteem, which is usually very high, seems to have plummetted. yeppers. go me.

okay. so im a whore...I...okay. I did not call Kitty on her b-day and i feel like shit. and i could go and say how sorry i am, but i already have. i could go say something, give a reason as to why i didnt call, but it wouldnt do anyone any good. i could make some witty, humorous proclamation/offer, but i dont think it would be appropriate and im too depressed to try...though i do have one. so, im just going to reiterate the apology and the shitty feeling. that wont do either, though. just forget it.

i hate myself sometimes. i really do. really. gar me gar gar. i wish i wasnt alive. seriously. i just...i just want to die. maybe its hormones...or maybe its the whole brain acting all funny again. there is a difference. i think i have this condition that i read about thats like bipolar disorder only not. yeah.

you know what? im just gonna go now.

byes.

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la la la la la... [24 Apr 2005|05:52pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | Maroon 5- "Sunday Morning" ]

Ah...yes. My journal. I really have had no motivation to do anything, let alone update this thing, so don't feel bad. I still love you. I'm still alive.

Well, we got yearbooks on monday. im in there a lot. go me.

mon and i have decided to apply for the snowflake steering committee. were definetely getting on it cause its run by mrs. smith and she freakin' loves me.

the other day in latin everyone was talking and mrs. smith started freakin out and yelled," none of you should be talking because no one in here has a 100 average!...except maybe Rachel." then the entire class turned around and gave me a death stare. AAhhh!!!

I got inducted into BETA club and NHS. go me, again.

last night was prom. went with mon and hampton. had moderate amounts of fun. lauren farrah asked me if i was gay...not sure if she was being serious but who knows. yeah...so as soon as i saw hampton (keep in mind, never met him) i slapped him and called him a homewrecker. mon and i had talked about me doing it for a while, but apparently she thought i was joking. haha. i should have taken jam. then i would have had a guy to dance with. dance with krista and elmo (though elmo didn't actually dance) and mon of course.

so, i was freakin out slightly because i had signed up to take a half hour of this prayer vigil and i was going to miss it because i decided to go to prom. well, apparently i got the date mixed up and thats not for a week. thank god.

well, okay then. thats all i can think of for now. bye byes.

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Oh my! [14 Apr 2005|05:05pm]
It seems like I haven't updated in a fortnight!

I'm doing fairly well. I'm grounded. My mom decided to go into my room and see how messy it was. silly silly woman. she even went through my fucking drawers. im pissed. shes been bitching to me a lot lately, sometimes about stuff that doesn't even concern me. arg!

mon got this man thing. good for her.

i really have nothing to say. not now at least. byes.
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[06 Apr 2005|06:46pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]
[ music | The Sundays- "Wild Horses" ]

Ello there! ugh. haven't updated in forever. haven't had the will to. Ive just been so bogged down by everything lately.

okay. hmm...the other day chris randomly imed me because "he was bored." bored my left ass. he knows i despise him and he just wanted to talk to me to see if he could get a reaction out of me. whatever. i hate him.

well...um...have to get my cover page lamentated tomorrow...gonna do it at the library at school. not sure when. i think ill force someone to go with me.

mrs. gaines assigned this group project where we have to watch a bug's life and find examples of transcendatlism and then present it to the class. holly and mallory (and possible mon) are gonna come over sometime this weekend and we's gonna watch it. should be fun.

last night i tried lost this auction item thingie i was bidding on. Susan Kay's Phantom. i really want that book...

not sure theres anything else to say. bye.

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okay...seriously... [30 Mar 2005|06:10pm]
i figured it out

i dont like him. nope. no!

i just find him extremely attractive (well, maybe not extremely)...quite...sorta attractive and...and...im a slut so ill let you fill the rest in. thats all there is to it. there.

bye.
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[29 Mar 2005|08:10pm]
Okay. that last entry was a little over dramatic, so ive decided to update once more before calling it a night.

so, um...i keep feeling like i need to try to do something about my weight. im fat. dont say im not...ah why even say that. youre still going to try to contradict me. but i am. but the thing is that i have absolutely no resolve to do anything about it. its not that i have no will power, its just that...i have self-confidence? like, when i look in the mirror, i see i fucking sexy ass bitch. yay. its only when im around sticks do i feel self-conscious...i dont know. i guess thats not bad. whatever.

ugh...stupid guy...NO! must resist topic!

i dont even want to get on the subject of my aunt. im not. lets just say that she only got probation. pity.

ive been completely engrossed in phan phic lately. i read the actually The Phantom of the Opera by gaston leroux...wasnt as good as i was hoping for. the phantom was more like a looming presence than an actual character. im going to try to get susan kay's Phantom. its supposed to be much better. but its out of print so ill have to like get it at ebay.

well, not im seriously going to bed

i so didnt do anything i said i was going to tonight...oh well.

good night...have no dreams! theyre bad!

okay seriously

good byes...

or are they?!! dum Dum DUM!!!


....
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I am the most horrible person on the face of the earth... [29 Mar 2005|07:57pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | Beethoven- Moonlight Sonata ]

AAAHHHHH!!!!! Okay, starting with my weird brain which will then lead to the...um..events.

Dreams. Back. Only now, filled with anachronisms. For those of you that weren't paying attention in English, and anachronism is a literary term for something out of its proper place in time. Well, the other day, Rachel had dream. Calvin was in dream...?!!! What the fuck is that?!! And he didn't even say anything. he was just there. in the background. and the other not...other guy in there. Ah!!! and by other guy...lets go with...Otam! haven't used that name in a while!

so, mon told me today that apparently, back when calvin and i were going out, paul showed him my journal. I'm like the worse person there ever was...Do you know what I talk about in here? What I said about him? I said he was annoying... I talked about him not having the balls to kiss me properly...I talked about breaking up with him...arg. You know, that could explain why he didn't seem surprised when I did do it, ya know? he freakin knew it was coming because of that godforsaken paul! damn him! I feel so bad. and apparenly calvin thinks i like hate him or something...ugh. i dont really think that i broke his heart though, contrary to popular belief ::coughcoughmoncoughcough:: if he had really REALLY like me he would have fucking kissed me. hes fine. leave me alone.

ugh. feel so bad...must change subject...

okay. otam. Why? WHY!!! why did he need to show back up in my head? is my subconscience trying to tell me something? or is it just fucking with me?

otam, aka guy whose name im not saying for fear of being killed, is um...a guy. that i liked. but i stopped liking him because of...reasons. and then he just pops back up into my damn brain...and he cut his hair recently (well not that recently) and it looks cute and and and...i cant do this. this is bad. this is so so bad. so bad. ugh. why? why him? he is like on the top of the list of guys not to like...somebody shoot me.

and no im not telling you who it is, thought most likely youve figured it out. if you havent youre a freaking idiot. please dont hurt me!

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