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Sunday, March 14th, 2004
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5:00 pm
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okay. i'm moving over to livejournal. just for reasons of my own. stupid, little things. nothing big. nothing against caleida. comment if you'd like the new username.
otherwise..farewell. haha.
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| Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
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12:06 pm - new journal.
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ah i suck. i'm gonna get a new journal. yeah. updates later.
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| Saturday, December 6th, 2003
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10:56 pm - Unf.
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I promise I'm going to update every day..that's my early New Year's resolution.
Okay..moving on. So much has happened recently it's all just whoosh..you know what I mean? But the other night I was really annoyed with my dad because I wasted 45 minutes having to make phone calls for him, he's deaf. I was starving, and when dinner was ready I was on the phone and had to wait a while. By the time I got off, I just wasn't hungry anymore..and later my parents started fighting and I was in a bad mood. I was being really quiet and stuff, then my grandparents kept asking how I was, and I told them I was fine. But no..my grandma went ahead and called my uncle and asked him to talk to me, because I usually tell him a lot because I trust him and he's depressed too. He also used to be an alcoholic, but goes to AA now. So, he can relate to me..but anyhow. It aggravated me, if I tell her I'm fine..she should just leave it at that. If she doesn't believe I am, there's obviously a reason I don't want to discuss with her..so she should just accept that. I don't know, at least she cares.
On more happier topics..IT HAS BEEN SNOWING! I went and walked around in the snow and played it in for about an hour or so with my friends. Then we became hungry..and numb. But, it was some good ole innocent fun. Ah, how nice.
current mood:  aggravated
current music: "Hey Driver" by Lucky Boy's Confusion stuck in my head..
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| Monday, November 3rd, 2003
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9:49 pm
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oh my gosh. I'm such a loser. I need to update WAYYY more often.
I've just been all over the place. I had THE WORST week ever. Well, I've probably had, or will have, worst. Who knows. It just sucked, okay?
On a lighter note..I get to go see Senses Fail, Matchbook Romance, and Millencolin in Detroit. Anyone going to that show?
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| Saturday, September 27th, 2003
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10:21 pm - mm lets update you all on my life.
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the concert was so much fun. moneen was cool, taking back sunday kicked ass <33. saves the day were hot, kinda disappointed me some.
i went to the mall today. got the postal service cd, and the cutest guy was at FYE. i also got a black headband, and some bobby pins. oh and some clips.
my uncle is in town! we went out to outback tonight and then saw pirates of the carribean. it was fun. nothing else is really happening.
current mood:  uncomfortable
current music: The District Sleeps Alone Tonight - Postal Service
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| Monday, September 22nd, 2003
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4:46 pm
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so today is definitely my birthday! its been so awesome. i got a few things from crystal..a cow pen, a notepad shaped like a N, lipgloss, nail polish, a little birthday girl barbie (dont ask), a barbie deck of cards (yet again, dont ask), and this little note to me mostly about our friendship. definitely was cute. then jess got me a candle, a flower and this cute box she put a collage on. tina got me the cure's cd. one of them at least. i picked it out though. crystals mom got me a $10 gift certificate to target..and meag and han (crystals little sisters) got me some sour skittles. my grandma is giving me $50 for the mall, and my parents got me my concert ticket to SAVES THE DAY..TAKING BACK SUNDAY..WITH MONEEN! how exciting. if anyone is going to it at agora in cleveland, ill fucking be there.
im out. keep the peace yall.
current mood:  ecstatic
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| Thursday, September 18th, 2003
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11:38 pm - my self esteem has been low..go ahead and count..its been lower than low.
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my sister is a bitch. im sick of her. she is such a hypocrite too. she gets so mad when i have the kitchen phone in my room, WHEN IM USING IT. but she had the phone downstairs in her room, in the basement, when she WASNT USING IT. okay..thats alright though. mm, right. what the fuck. and she said it was down there because she lost her phone. but wait, it wasnt her who lost it..it was rachel (my little sister) and i. of course! haha fuck her.
yeah. im just sick of both of my sisters and living here in this shit town and dealing with this shit people. i cried for an hour and a 1/2 straight. so hard. i feel so sick now. and i went up to the park in the rain for a 1/2 hour. so that will probably make my cold last another 5337937 weeks. but it was all good, cos no one noticed i was gone. go figure.
i might move to tennessee and live with my aunt and uncle. i hope so.
current mood:  depressed
current music: Save Yourself - Sense Field
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| Monday, September 15th, 2003
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9:21 pm - oh baby there aint no mountain high enoughhhh.
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so whoo i havent updated in a while, i made new friends at the movie theatre. long story! turns out i kinda already knew 2 of them. kinda.
so anyway. whats with so many kids listening to dashboard confessional and all now? its kinda weird. i liked them last year or something. i dunno. now if i hear a song i kinda get annoyed. but thats just me. i mean im not saying my music is the shit, haha we all know it definitely isnt. but you know.
homecoming is in 2.5 weeks or something!
oh and um..the other day i dove into a bush. lol, no i was riding my friends brothers bike and the handlebars werent screwed on tight enough so they were all wiggly. and i kept wobbling and then i saw this bush and realized i was gonna lose control. my friends describe it as me flying off my bike and diving headfirst into the bush. ohmygosh. it hurt so badly. lol but it was hilarious as fuck. oh and the people in the house had their lights on and windows open, and i was screaming so loud. im glad they came and helped me. i told them i didnt need assistance anyway. but it was great fun.
go to caribou coffee. yum. caramel cooler. YUM. omg id die for one right about now.
current mood:  bitchy
current music: Bleeder - Alkaline Trio
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| Monday, September 1st, 2003
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9:34 pm
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i babysat for my cousin saturday night. and as my aunt and i were driving to their house, she told me about her hospital visit. my sisters and i were just told she had a nervous breakdown. turns out, she od'ed. she said she told me cos she heard about how i had, and wanted me to know she was going through the same thing. i wouldve never expected it, but then i dont think some people expect stuff like that from me either. its just so weird to know she did that too. i dunno. then my other uncle who lives in tennessee, hes been depressed since he was my age too. and he goes to therapy. i didnt know it was so common in my family.
current mood:  shocked
current music: Innocent - Our Lady Peace
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| Wednesday, August 27th, 2003
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9:38 pm
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oh oh..who got a haircut??!...ME! its the shortest ive ever had it, probably the shortest i can have it without looking totally stupid. its at my shoulders and its just i dunno. my hair isnt so frizzy anymore, and my split ends went bye-bye.
im in such a weird mood right now..on a total sugar high and im going crazy about high school tomorrow. first day is tomorrow of the next 4 years of most likely, hell. argh.
current mood:  nervous
current music: Headstrong - Trapt...dont ask.
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8:27 am
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okay. im back from my last vacation this summer. finally. i missed orientation while i was gone, so yesterday when we got home my sister, her boyfriend and i went up to the high school. her counselor wasnt there, and she was gonna get my schedule from him. so instead she just showed me around some. later im gonna go up there with crystal, tina, and rachel and get my schedule. hopefully they'll give it to me cos school starts tomorrow.
but yeah..i saw the play 1776, ive grown up watching that movie and listening to the soundtrack many times. so that was interesting. i also went whitewater rafting. that was cool. my uncle, my sister and i fell out of the raft. haha that was amusing. we stopped at this place where there is a waterhole and rocks around it. there was a 4 foot level cliff to jump off of, a 7 foot, and a 15 foot. i jumped off the 7 footer and the 15 footer, amazingly. but yeah..i went to my aunts cabin in north carolina. it was so pretty. we all just kinda hung out there and went into town. i also went to UT and OSU with my sister. i went on the OSU tour which was interesting.
i just babble on and on all the time, dont i.
current mood:  hopeful
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| Wednesday, August 20th, 2003
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10:11 pm - youre sweet just like the sun
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go see uptown girls. oh my gosh. it was so cute, sweet, and funny. it had a cute guy in it, and it made me cry. total chick flick. just go..go see it NOW.
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6:33 pm - whooo
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yeah..im leaving tomorrow for vacation. we're leaving at 7:15 AM and then tomorrow night we're going to see the play of 1776 in Virginia. then tomorrow i think we're going to tennessee, im not sure. but sometime we'll be in north carolina too. im staying with my aunt and uncle in tennessee w/ my sisters. and in north carolina ill be staying in a cabin with my sisters, my great aunt, my dad's cousin, my grandma, and maybe my dad and my other uncle.
anyway..i got a new computer. well my dad bought this old one cos his friend was selling them cheap. i asked what he was gonna do with it and he said he didn't know, so i asked to put it in my room. he agreed. kaching. yeah, so its pretty good. works fine for me.
so yeah..i wont be back until tuesday. so see ya then.
current mood:  mischievous
current music: Drive Away - All American Rejects
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| Sunday, August 17th, 2003
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3:47 pm - could another point of view..biased and untrue tear me away from you
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so yeah..rob called me. we used to be good friends when i was in 6th and 7th grade. he's a year older, so during my 8th grade year and his 9th..we didn't talk much at all since we were both in different schools. now we're starting to talk again, which is good..cos hes a good kid. he's getting to be friends w/ david too, which is cool. rob and i used to hang out with some other kids too..and rob said he misses me the most out of everyone. haha, i felt special, hah.
anyway..the other day my mom went ballistic, she threw things and broke her lamp then said she wasn't coming home after work. of course my dad went and got her and she came home, i didn't expect her not to leave. im just scared that one of these days she actually will. and then she said she was gonna take me and my sister shopping today but then said her tires couldnt do it (because we have a spare on right now) and that we should wait until tomorrow. that was fine with me, but what pissed me off is how right now she's at a friend's house an hour away. whatever. she did get $100 from the lottery, so at least now we have more money for shopping.
oh yeah and my dad was drunk pretty much all of yesterday, which isn't anything new..whatever.
crystals coming over tonight to sleep over..finally, a plus.
current mood:  okay
current music: Your Sweet Legacy - June Spirit
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| Wednesday, August 13th, 2003
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5:43 pm
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i just got back from pennsylvania..forgot to mention i was going there before i left. i stayed w/ court for 4 days. we went to the mall, sewickley, and hung out at maralee's. i met james, brad and zac. they're fun kids. i bought some cds and stuff. it was fun..i love it there. i wish i could live there, itd be hot. cos yeah, it sucks here in bay. it really does. but oh well..ill have to get over it.
current mood: bored
current music: All Systems Go - Box Car Racer
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| Thursday, August 7th, 2003
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10:54 pm
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i dont have much to say. i was just bored, and decided to update. i just got back from gap and kohls. got me some much needed jeans. yes. life's going peachy..hahahhahaha. yeah whatever. im sleepy.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Champagne From a Paper Cut - Death Cab for Cutie
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| Monday, August 4th, 2003
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8:26 pm
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wow im in such a good mood right now. haha its great. i want a haircut. but anyway..last night my sister rachel broke my glasses. sweetness. my mom is gonna pick them up tomorrow i think. yeah i was mad at her cos she didnt take me earlier instead, she took rachel and her friends out to daystar boutique. pssh um okay. i didnt wanna go cos rachel annoys me toooo much. but anyway. we went to friendlys. im happy. i need happy songs. someone give me suggestions.
current mood: bouncy
current music: Sweet Home Alabama - Lynard Skynard (spelling?)
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| Sunday, August 3rd, 2003
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4:50 pm
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ehh yesterday was interesting. around 12:30-ish last night online, jessica IMs me and asks if i could do her a huge favor. well, i said that it depends. she told me her friend kat was over and puking cos she was so drunk, and asked me to bring some bread and coffee over. so yeh, jess and i arent great friends anymore. but i mean when someone needs help, im not gonna refuse my hand. so i grabbed the bread and our coffee, threw it in a bag and rode my bike to jessicas. i was shaking, one because i was nervous and worried..and two, because i didnt want the cops catching me out past curfew. but anyway, i got to jessicas and we made her some coffee and she was still puking. she said she had stopped, and got into the bed but then ran back into the bathroom. later she went to sleep. but she had thanked me and all, but that was the first time i met her so i felt embarrassed for her. then later i just rode my bike home around 1:30. never got caught by the cops, and my parents were gone and still gone when i got home which was good.
i went over to crystal's house today to give her little sister a get well card and some candy, cos she broke her arm. and her mom gave me some highlighters, cos they had extra. that was good because i need some for school. and we were talking about kids drinking and smoking, and she had said if we went to a party and our designated driver was drinking, to call her. she said she'd pick us up and ask no questions. i was like haha thats good to know. anyway. im off to have no life. adios.
current mood:  refreshed
current music: California - Joni Mitchell
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| Saturday, August 2nd, 2003
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4:15 pm - rain, rain down.
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im sick of waking up every day to the same routine. just sitting around or going online. or playing sims. every day i get yelled at by my sister, and according to her i'm just an annoying, selfish bitch anyway. so why does she bother talking to me..its a waste of time. and my mom's just yelling about something new every minute. she's only nice when she wants something from me or if we had previously got in a fight and she's trying to make it up. i always have to call tina and rachel to do things, they never invite me anywhere with them. it's always them two unless i am the one making the plans. or david and he invites me. it's just so boring. there's one reason i want school to start though, so i have something to do. whatever. oh yes, but crystal invites me places. but she's in michigan, she always has to go there with her jackass dad. i <3 her. she's a sweetie. but yah..im just really sick of waking up every day to this life of blah. one day id rather just go to sleep and never wake up. argh.
current mood: pessimistic
current music: Something of Value - Yellowcard
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| Friday, August 1st, 2003
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12:41 am
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