Current mood:

sleepy

Basically I skipped work yesterday for no good reason. In my mind I had the idea that I would stay home and take care of all those household duties I have been neglecting. Well I didn't do anything but make icons and basically sat around like I do every weekend when I am off. I am such a procrastinator. I know things have to done and yet I find a reason to not do them :-P

The last time I saw Daniel was a week ago today. Everything just clicked and it was really good but then there is always the let down the next day because I want there to be more. If I am going to keep seeing him I think I am going to have to accept that we are going to be no more than as my best friend calls it "fuck buddies". Even though I really like him and we have fun when we are together it bothers me that we don't talk until we do get together. Emails consist of nothing more than "hi how you doing" blah blah. See the thing of it is I would like to ask him but then I don't want to be the girl who says "where is this relationship going?", "can you define what we are doing and what it means to you?" uggghh I just don't know how to handle this. I have no experience in this arena because of my past. This would officially be the first boy that I have seen on a romantic regular basis even though I am as old as I am. Growing up in the strict religion I did. I am kinda just thinking that maybe I should just cool it and not see him for awhile.

As for my last entry I appreciate all the people that posted a reply. There are times that remind me that she is not there but I am feeling a little better about it. She was a great pet for so long and I have accepted that it was just time for her to go.

On a good note I have learned how to make transparency icons which has inspired me to get creative with them again. Mostly customizing them with Elvis Costello lyrics right now :) I have been listening to This Years Model for the past two weeks as I have been driving to and from work and I keep thinking that line would make a great icon :-P hehe
I am trying to make some banners and things for my communities and I have been reading my Photoshop book because I have it in my mind how I want them to look but I don't know how to do it.

Mom is no longer in Missouri with my sister but back in Michigan. She is not going to be home for about 2 more weeks or so. When she does get back I have to start giving her money for all the phonebills I ran up. It's usually $40 but since she has been gone it's like $110. bleh I get bored and start calling my friends which all happen to be sooo very far from me. Not good.

oh yeah yesterday I dropped a full can of soda on my big toe. Yeah so now it's black and blue underneath my toenail, my cuticle is blacking red, and I think I cracked the toenail right above the cuticle. It hurts sooooooooooo bad. I know that my toenail is going to fall off. For some reason this is the leg that bad things happen too :-P I broke this leg twice, I horse got scared and backed up on me and stepped on this foot once, so yeah ....

I just found out that Annie Rice's Blood Canticle is out and I want a copy really bad. I don't even know if I have any bookstores located anywhere near me that would have it. If I was in Michigan I could buy it at Media Play for like 30% off :-P

strike that the closest bookstore is 40 miles away - now I have to call them and see if they have it and how much it is.