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I havn't written in this for the longest time ever! So, Im gonna try harder on that, actually theres a lot the I need to try harder at. So this entry is for my friends so I dont have to say the same thing like 6 times and so ya'll can read it at the same time. So here it is...
Ok, I'm really sorry I did act up like that, it was really immature. And Melissa Massey is right, I really shouldn't take you guys for granted but it seemed like I didn't have like a really really best friend out of you guys cuz it seemed you guys wanted to do things together but not with me, so I thought I was looseing friends and I didn't have a real one. Well all summer i kept beating myself up about that and then being so mad, I just turned the situation onto you guys blaming it on you, and it was really my fault all along.
I know you guys would ask me to do things with you and I would come up with some kinda of excuse, becuz I thought u guys where like just asking me along cuz u felt bad for me cuz I had nothing else to do, and you relaly didn't want me along. And that was one mistake I really need to fix.
Next, it's like you guys do everything together and it seems like I'm never there to experiance it with you, and yah thats my fault in a way, and I'm not comeing to the conclusion that you should invite me to everything, or else I'll piss of at u, not that at all! It just seems like it's the three amigo's over here, kelsie, jamie and melissa. And I'm not blaming anything on you or anything or saying its your fault, I dunno, it's hard for me to kinda explain, I just feel out of place in this friendship and not included, and I know you probably think I am and all, I dunno its hard lol. well, like Im saying, u guys have already chosen locker buddies with each other, and I know I should have spoken up about it, i dunno, maybe i shouldnt say that, but i got the gist that its i know defintly Jamie and Melissa, probably Kelsie and Chloe, and Melissa and Tom. I dunno maybe I shouldn't say that cuz I dunno if its true, but im afraid thats wats gonna happen, so now me and Ryan Thompson decided to share...but I'd really rather one of my friends would share with me but thats ok, thats not really the point.
And I really need to work on my sensitivity and not let it get to me. I know you guys r really joking, and it's awesome that we're so open to each other lol...funny times. But to me, it just gets to too much, and its just not the right time. just gets outta hand. and i really know ur joking.
I dunno...all i want to say is a really big sorry to all of u espescially Melissa Markow...and I still need to talk to you. Sorry I havnt been able to, I should have last night, but I was busy cleaning and kept leaving the computer. So, I really hope I can get a forgivness from all of you...my horomones are acting up. lol or maybe stupid UNCLE TOM is getting to me.
And just to say to all of you...if I ever do that again, slap me! And I really do love you and I don't realize what great friends I have I just hope nothing changes between us during our last three years of high school.
Love Always and Forever- Tiff
P.S.- Blake Mertz asked me out, I havn't given him an answer yet, and he told me to take my time. So I'll talk to ya'll about that later! lol 
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