I'm back... Did you miss me?

I solemnly swear I am up to no good.

Time:	9:42 pm.
Mood:	indescribable.

It's awfully quiet here in my room even with the phonograph playing. I charmed it to play music from the Muggle composer Mozart. It really is quite relaxing especially after the little nightmare I had. I was at Azkaban, outside the prison itself, looking over the cliff and into the ocean. The waves were crashing upon the rocks. I turned around and saw the Dementors, approaching me quickly. I had no choice... I had to leap off the cliff.

And I did...

It was then I realized I had turned into Padfoot and I was swimming furiously against the waves.

Maybe it wasn't so much of a nightmare as it was... a memory.

Harry did well in I.S. today. He's making me so proud.

But after class, I haven't seen him. Come to think of it, I haven't seen Hermione or Ron either.

Tomorrow's Hogsmeade. I suppose I'll go... it'll be good to get out though I was just there a couple of days ago. I could stand to replenish my supplies though.

I solemnly swear I am up to no good.

Time:	3:53 pm.
Mood:	awake.

I woke up late last night in my office. Apparently I had fallen asleep at my desk doing some work. It's amazing how doing something monotonous really makes one drowsy. Or maybe it was what I did earlier that day.

I haven't talked to Harry in a while now. This new position of mine has made it hard to have any free time. Plus I'm sure he's been busy with classes as well. But just to be sure, I'll have to remind myself to send an owl later. Ophelia hasn't had much exercise and she looks at me with eyes that tell me she wants to go out, so I best use her before she pecks my eyes out.

3 Pranks *** I solemnly swear I am up to no good.

Time:	3:16 pm.
Mood:	accomplished.

I don't think I've ever been so busy in my life. Honestly. This whole weekend has been either spent in the library or looking for an office (which thankfully I've found already). The research for Professor Lupin is done and I should be more prepared for class tomorrow.

A high point of my weekend was playing some Quidditch with two of my students, Harry and Ron. They have the new Firebolt Mach 5 brooms and Harry let me use his Firebolt. I must say, flying out there on the Pitch really brought back memories.

I'm probably going to spend the day cleaning out my new office and organizing it. It's got a great view of the lake which will keep me occupied during the times I don't feel like doing work.

Speaking of work... I suppose I should get to it.

I solemnly swear I am up to no good.

Time:	10:54 pm.
Mood:	blank.

I told him... I told him something that I myself had kept hidden inside for the longest time. I didn't even remember until tonight, until my journal was found and revealed. But it's not something that should be hidden, he needed to know. If for any other reason, to get to know ME.

I hope he never doubts how much his mother really did love James. I was just some attraction... a pretty boy. Nothing more. He has to know that his mum loved James and him with all her heart.

I can't be around here. I doubt he'll want to see me.

I hope he understands.

I solemnly swear I am up to no good.

Time:	4:54 pm.
Mood:	contemplative.

Harry and Hermione came for a chat last night. It was nice (as usual), but they did seem a bit jumpy when I started talking about the L.S. and what they had found so far. Seemed to want to get off the topic quickly...

Though our chat did remind me of something... something I can't believe I had forgotten about until last night. My journal, the journal that James's parents gave me for Christmas... there are a lot of things in there. But I doubt that the kids would read it if they found it. Besides, I've probably told them everything about myself already. Well, almost everything. Bloody hell, I'd probably tell them anything if they only thought to ask it.

4 Pranks *** I solemnly swear I am up to no good.

Time:	5:49 pm.
Mood:	thoughtful.

I found many interesting things on my romp through the castle this weekend. Spied on Hermione, Harry, and Ron this weekend as well. They were all working so hard... I bet they're at least a month ahead in all their work.

You know I have to admit, I missed talking with Harry while being gone this weekend. I don't know if he realizes how happy I am just to be a part of his life.

4 Pranks *** I solemnly swear I am up to no good.

Time:	9:43 pm.
Mood:	indifferent.

Think I may wander around Hogwarts over the weekend. Maybe even visit Hogsmeade. Don't know yet really... there are a lot of nooks and crannys that have yet to be discovered in the old castle.

I solemnly swear I am up to no good.

Time:	10:54 am.
Mood:	complacent.

My weekend excursion went by quite well. I really needed to get away after all that happened last week. It wasn't so much that I couldn't handle what was being said or what was going on, it just reminded me of some memories that I had tried quite hard to not think about. I don't know if I'll ever get rid of those thoughts and I really don't know if I would want to. What I do know is that the memories, good and bad, will always be a part of me and maybe it was a mistake to try to hide them.

It's quite clear though that going away for the weekend and practicing my... *ahem* "skill" was something I should have done long ago. I can't believe that I almost forgot how to do it. It was Harry who reminded me actually. It helped me get through the last couple years of school and it helped me during my Azkaban ordeal. When you shut off your emotions, it's hard for the dementors to lock in on what it is that you fear.