Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	Jack Off Jill- Cinnamon Spider

Yep, I'm actually updating
I'm updating from my 4th hour class. Doesn't matter cause we have a substitute. I wasted my whole Spring Break in my room mourning. I've been so depressed. I didn't even go to Regal and I usually anticipate going. Now that I'm back in school Asshole(dubbed em) seems to be everywhere. Makes me get angry and hurt at the same time. But yeah. I've been so fucked up that I've tortured my stuffed animals. I stabbed a teddy bear in the head with the scissors I use, I crucified a frog doll on my bulletin board, and one of my stuffed cats is hanging from the top bunk. The hanging was actually meant for me but I think Sabbath(the cat doll) looks better on it. But yeah, I've been getting worse. Maybe a bit better though, I'm actually interacting with people now. I also bought a Spider Katar online. I want school to end so quickly, I never want to see Asshole ever again. I hate myself now too, I hate myself for being so weak...