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But since I haven't been on for the past 3 days, Ima update you on everything. O.k., I believe the last day I updarted was Thrusday (or I hope so, cause I don't remember anything from Thursday).
Friday: It was a normal school day, except that it was Jess's birthday. Yaay!! Our whole group was happy again, and we were having so much fun. But yeah, around 5 I called Jess asking her if she was going to do anything that night so I could tell my Mom, and she was in tears...her Mom yelled at her again, and she wanted to get out of the house. Soo....we did a party for her at my house.
It was started at 6, Shaun and Erica were the first to arrive. Then Geoff, Jess, and Pammie. Haha. Around 7:30ish, Taylor came surprisingly. We were watching "Win a Date with Tad Hamilton". haha, We decided that Pete was Taylor cause when he was making a sandwhich, he was listening to Barry White (i.e. the way that he told me that he liked me, eh ;]). Anyways...it was kinda depressing cause it reminded me of Taylor and I, but yeah, what do I know??
Then after the movie, Taylor, Erica, Shaun and I went into my jacuzzi, while everyone else was playing pool. (Britt and John were here by then). And so I was looking at the stars while messing around with Taylor. Twas fun. Then we went inside, and played pool. Pammie, Britt and I kicked Taylor, Erica, and Johns butt. =]. yaay!! Of course we had pizza and cupcakes out of all of this. Then everyone went home except Jess, Geoff, Pammie and Taylor. Jess, Geoff, and Pammie were doing taebo, and Taylor and I was either tickling eachother or helping them with their stance (they would do horrible in karate, ju-jitsu...etc.)
Everyone finally went home around 11, we gave Geoff a ride home blaring "We are the Champions" in the car. Haha, it was fun, then my Mom was talking about how Taylor kinda changed my attitude, like I was kinda sad, and it was like "Well, no shit, we just kinda broke up 2 months ago!". psh...
Saturday: I didn't get to sleep until 1:30, and even then a crow was cawing into my window waking me up at 6 anyways. Yeah, I was soo tired. Then I convienced my Mom to let me go to the beach with the whole group, which didn't happen, they kinda ditched us. psh... But I went with Geoff, David, Taryn, and Wendy. It was fun until 1:30, cause it was kinda cold, so we went to Taryns house and watched Mulan. W00T!! Haha.
Then Geoff and I went to his house for awhile, and watched Peter Pan. I kinda felt akward around his brother, cause you know, hes a wrestler, and a friend of Taylors, and ahh!! He just kept on looking at me, and so yeah, I was just trying to be nice and talking to him. Did I mention that they live in a huge ass house?? Haha, their mormon, what do you expect?? Haha.
Then Geoff and I went off to Cee cees party. That was fun, we played cranium, went into the bounce house, stayed in the jacuzzi for like two hours (I couldn't exactly go into the pool =/). Ate mucho food, watched her open presents, and watched some of the breakfest club. It was fun. Our group needs something like that. Then Shaun called me during the party asking when Geoff and I were leaving (cause we were the only two invited out of the group) and I said at 10, cause thats when it ended, and appernetly they were going to have another thing for Jess's birthday. Psh, shes so loved, I dunno what shes talking about.
Went home...yeah.
Sunday: I cleaned until 12ish, and then started d/ling songs and what not. Ooo!! winamp.com <---good site for playing music, check it out, it has prettys skins. =]. Then Jess, Aaron and I went to the mall. Haha, and when we were at Pac Sun, Taylor came (he tickled me to let us know that he was there). Maybe cause on my away message it said "At the mall with Jess, come tag along if you want". *sigh* I MISS HIM!! =[. I'm over it, kinda.
Came home, yada yada yada. Then I was reading my cuzes journal, and then a pop up came up saying that another ip address was interferring with my computer, and it kicked me offline. of course, I flipped, thinking it was the government about my music files (I have over 200). Then I asked Ricky (the hacker =P) and he said it was nothing. I'm done with d/ling songs for awhile. haha.
Monday: I woke up at 6:30 with cramps. yay!! But can today get any worse?? you bet! I took advil, it wasn't helping, and so I made myself take midol, almost threw up like 3 times before i took it. Then I almost threw up like 5 more times before I went to Taylors. Then about 5 more times on the way to Taylors. Haha, it sucked. When I got ther ethough, he made me feel better (without knowing it). Then right when I got to school, I called my Dad and he came to pick me up right when the 9 minute bell rang. Yep. =]. annnd...dats it to my knowledge.
Here are two things that I stole. (filling them out kinda things)
1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCH!"
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air."
4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish.
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own. (I just read all their books and watched the show..)
6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls. !!!!!
7. You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: M.C. Hammer
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock."
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales."
12. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen.
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
16. You played the game "MASH" !!!!!
17. You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it.
18. L.A. Gear
19. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten.
20. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the Ramona books.
21. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF."
22. You wanted to be a Goonie.
23. You ever wore flourescent clothing.
24. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off.
25. You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
26. You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
27. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
28. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence.
29. You remember Hypercolor T-shirts.
30. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
31. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up.
32. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets.
33. You owned a pair of jelly sandals.
34. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
35. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!"
36. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
37. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip 'n' Slide.
38. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
39. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's.
40. You've gone through this list occasionally saying "totally awesome."
41. You remember Popples.
42. "Don't worry, be happy."
43. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights.
44. You wore socks scrunched down.
45. "Miss MARY MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK"
46. You remember boom boxes vs. CD players.
47. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
48. You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"
49. You remember watching Rainbow Brite and My Little Ponies.
50. You thought Doogie Howser was hot.
51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool.
53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell," the ORIGINAL class.
54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - "YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME"
55. You played and or collected "Pogs"
56. You used to pretend that you could transform into a Power Ranger.
Bold if you've done it, too. Remember the lovely 90's.
I took this survey of me, not another person. But anybody who wishes to fill one out about me can do so.
Yes, no, or rate it 1-10 (10=highest)
Ugly?: not exactly...and I hate knowing that.
Kind?: 7ish
Quiet?: 3ish
Loud?: 8ish
Shy?: 3ish
Weird?: 10
Selfish?: 6ish...other people should really tell me this one though.
Ghetto?: 6ish
Crazy?: 9ish
Hott?: ...I hate admitting to this one too (I'm only saying this cause everyone tells me this)
Nice?: 7ish
Mean?: 6ish
Immature?: 9ish
Rude?: 2ish (I try not to be)
Cool? : 0 haha...
Brat?: 5ish
Blonde?: 11
Caring?: 8ish
Mature?: 5ish
A friend?: 10 (I try)
More than a friend?: ...I can't be that right now...but I was a 10.
Talkative?: 10
Boring?: 10
Creative?: 5ish
Smart?: 7ish
A flirt?: 9ish
Stupid?: 5ish
A psycho?: 11
Athletic?: 7ish...maybe a 5 right now though. =/.
Confusing?: 15
Sweet?: 7ish
Mood swings?: 10
Annoying?: 7ish
Funny?: 6ish
Hyper?: 10
Laid back?: 2ish
Perfect?: 0
**JUST SOME QUESTIONS**
1. Do you think I'll get married?: I would like to..
2. If you do..who do you think I'll marry?: =[....thats a depressing thought, cause tis not gonna happen.
3. When is my birthday?: November 3
4. Who is my best friend?: Pammie
5. Where did we meet?: I have known myself my whole life. haha.
6. Have you ever had a dream about me?: dying, yeah.
7. If you could change one thing about me what would it be?: be really truely happy and no more depressing moments. >.<
8. Describe me in 3-5 words: You are too...emotional, gr!
9. If you could tell me one last thing what would it be?: Go get a life.
10. If you could ask me anything what would it be?: Why did you have to screw up to lose someone that you loved?
11. Have you ever had a crush on me?: um..
**PERSONAL(OPPOSITE SEX ONLY)**
1. I am the_______person you know. hyperactive
2. Would you like to kiss me?: It's kinda hard to kiss yourself.
3. On a scale of 1-10 (10 being high), how much do you think of me each
day?: 5ish
4. Would you ever ask me out?: i could never go out with abother me, I would have to have an opposite.
5. Have you ever almost or actually loved me?: At times when I thought I did everything right and that I had everything in the world.
6. Physically, what's my best feature?: *sigh*
7. Mentally, what's my best feature?: My happiness.
**EVERYBODY**
1. Do you wish we were closer?: I wouldn't want to get close to me, because then I would drag you into my problems...and trust me, I have alot of them....sorry Jess.
2. State here your completely honest opinion of me: Your just....so desperate.
You know, Saturday was a month after my surgery...and yesterday was two months ago since Taylor and I broke up. How depressing is that??
Im out.
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and my right hip hurts so much
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