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Well hello stranger....

I woulda updated sooner, cept the whole factor i was out in the wilderness. Scosh's family and us headed up to the trailer for a few days of good ol mosqueto killin, campfire cookin, sleepin in tent fun. Well, Jeremy was there, so it was fun i guess?.

I figured out im a complete idiot:D. Jeremy and I like eachother, cept the whole factor of the distance thing. We ended up actaully holdin hands and playfighting when I realized something. Whats the point in starting something if were not gonna see eachother lots?. I mean, he has his g2 and everything, which means he could drive down to see me and stuff...but I'm horribly confused. Right now isn't even that great of a time for me to be going into a relationship. Even though jeremy and I have been toying around that for 2 years. It was finally nice to get to hang out with him and we hugged an all, but i just couldn't keep my mind off the whole distance issue. I do like Jeremy, and we do have good chemistry, except I just am too psyched out by myself now, I don't know what to do.

Thinking that, i know I shouldn't be in a realtionship right now, which settles my whole debate on whether I should date him or not. Plus the whole factor of James coming into view finally, that just choses my destination. I've been throwing the idea of him and I together in my head. It makes perfect sence as well. Even with us going to two different highschools we've managed to keep in contact as well as hang out every so often. With James I'm so comfortable, chemistry is beyond amazing and everything else fits. But then again, I don't plan on getting into a relationship. So for the starters of grade 10, i will be a single new reformed chick. I have completely changed since last year. Which is awesome I think. I've got a new wardrobe, new hair/makeup, new outlook, and most of all a new sence of what needs to happen. I'm more devoted to actually sitting down and working rather than last years attempt on becoming well liked. I don't care if I make tons of friends and become miss popularity or whatever (yeah I know horrible example but it works). I just want to get my work done, stay well with my close friends and even find out more about them. Being up here and away from all the crap in St.Catharines has really opened my eyes. So thank god i left and came up here. My school workload has majorly increased since I am actually going to do 3 subjects fully this year. *those who know me well, know what im talking about* And that just increases the pressure. But oh well, I can handle it, and I will do it well.

Thankyou guys for all your support with everything, it means a lot more than what some may think. Scotia, girl thanks for everything that you have been doing with me, keeping my busy, taking walks, talking for hours on end, it DOES mean a LOT to me, and I'm forever grateful. Henning, Marlena, thank you guys too, I know i haven't been around much to talk, but I will makeup for lost time as soon as I come home. Mel, Calina ASAP I will grab you two together, and we'll all have a major sleepover filled with tons of movies, and junkfood. Everyone else, thankyou though, and Tamara, I know your watching from above, we all love you soo much, thankyou for being in my life, i could not possibly find the words to describe what an impact you have made, the footsteps you have left in my mind will forever be there, as with the words that you have spoken, the advice you have given, and the love is infinitatively given until the day were all reunited. I must go now, I'm quite tired, and I hope I talk to you all soon. Lots of love :) night night.