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GOODBY CALEIDA>>>> I HAVE LEFT TO LIVE JOURNAL>>> ANYONE WHO WOULD LIKE TO ADD ME... I AM LUSTNEVERSLEEPS http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.b |
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| 11:55pm 04/08/2004 | |||
| I have a comunity... please try and join it.. lustneversleeps... THANK YOU | |||
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| 09:23pm 03/08/2004 | ||||
I have a major migrain... Ok so as I said in the last 4 entries I wrote... I deleted most the people on my friends list!..why you may ask! Thats a simple question to answer! 1- bacause they never comment and 2- because they never put something other then the stupid fuckign quizes or surveys come on that shit has a limit!!!... oh and because they never updated... I'm left with few people... btu Im sure ill soon trip over some more... Caleida's wicked people have left! where have they all gone!! come out come out wherever you are!! Josh and I tried to sell and XBOX game but they only offered $6 for it .. is that right??? does anyone OUT THERE KNOW?!?!... The games are crappy... "Lord of the Rings, The 2 towers" and "Tony Hawk, Underground" |
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crappy| Blades Dont need realoding... | ||||
| 10:24am 01/08/2004 | ||||
So i gathered you understood by now that i went to the movies. yesterday I got offered a job at Hard Rock Cafe, I thought it was a cool job to have, lets just see what happens with that. Today we talked to the guy again from hard rock and he said Josh and I could possly go but Sandy was a tad young. nippless!!!! omgggggggg I have NO nipples!!! yes I've been reading to much of Jhonen Vasquez's work, but who can blame me? the guy rocks! I wish i could pick his brain I like it. And im talkign stupid shit like always for Christ sake what am I supposed to write here... today i woke up, had a pop tart for beakfast, went to out came home and fell asleep THE END... TARAN! Yes I'm in a weird ass mood! anyway Im going to do something productive like a resume for my hopefully next job... well when the mommy cat and the daddy cat put this thing in the... AHHH |
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awake| Dear Die-ary: Today I stuffed some dolls full of dead rats I put in the blender. | ||||
| 09:58pm 29/07/2004 | ||||
I'm playing Solitare Delux on Msn with Samantha again isen't this a gay life. Moahahaha Josh left the Xbox with the Lord of the Rings game, I plan to beat it... yes I addmit I like video game just as much as I enjoy reading a good book. Sandy, Josh and me went to see Carolyne at her sister's house, as soon as we got there her sister started bitching on how people that dress like us are dead on the inside and she doesnt want that near the house and if we culd please go, we stayed there, for a while her sister kept it up but we still didnt move, I wanted to play kick the baby (like they do on South Park) with Carolynes nephew but danm it never got a chance... It was okay at the beggining hanging out there but then the moskitos attacked and I got hungry, plus I think Panama is ina giant fuckign oven it's so hot outside. We came home I got hyper... I mosh pitted bymeself like an idiot, played and imaginary guitar and sang along to some songs, sandy took a video. Sandy left, josh and I mosh pitted hahah we almost killed each other but HEY it was fuunn.... Im to hyper to sit here writing this pathetic entry.. suck my balls... |
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hyper| A)The view of my life from here is..... B) a brick wall.... | ||||
| 11:34pm 28/07/2004 | ||||
Im tired.. I wont give a propper update but mark my words Im back.. at least ill try to update I have to study like a maniac... i dyed my hair bloody red.. soon it will be blue .... ( red ) |
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tired| Cry alone,I've gone away,No more nights,no more pain | ||||
| 01:02pm 01/07/2004 | ||||
and yes it pissed me off... Its 2 weeks before sandy or josh get back ... im gonna commite murder.. im missing sandy jesus who wouldnt miss her she is good company and a good friend.. and josh fuck im going up the wall im missing him so bad... life sucks with out them around... down here in latin fuckign america im fuckign lucky to even have them around me people here are so closed minded grrr god i want to go back home to the uk or just move to somewhere were people will just leave me the fuck alone... I feel like takign pictures... Yesterday I got my other nipple and the bottom side of my bely pierced.. i want to get my lip pierced twice my nose and the other 2 side of my belly... but with time i gues.. im still lookign for a tattoo desing anyone knowmaybe where i can look around to get ideas???... When josh gets back im gonna die my hair bloody red... hopefully ill go to the states some time soon that way i can buy a bunch of hair dye... anyway im out.. |
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pissed off| 09:42pm 28/06/2004 | |||
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Name *: Kythe Age *: 17 Height *: 5'6 Weight *: 117 Hair Color *: right now black Eye Color *: mix between hazel and green Anything You Specifcally Like About Yourself *: my eyes First's First Kiss *: Charley First Crush *: fucked if i know First BOYfriend *: Charley First Love *: Josh First Break Up *: Charley First HeartBroken *: none yet Right Now What Time Is It *: 9:44 What Is On Tv *: News What Is On The Radio *: static Do You Have A Crush *: gaaaa If so who *: gaaaa What Are You Wearing *: ohh sexy!!! im wearing undies and thats it .. jk piyamas!!!! moahahaha What Is Going Through Your Mind *: I want to see josh Do You Love Any One *: josh Do They Love You *: uh huh! Do You Think You Will Last *: huh? Lasts Last Person You Hugged *:My brother! yes we actualy hugged! Last Person You Kissed *:josh before he left Last Person You Talked To *: richard Last Person You IMED *: richard Last Person You Went Out With *: my brother Last Person You Have Been Physically Attracted Too *: josh Last Person You Touched *: just touched gaaa my brother.. sexually.. josh Last Person You Loved *: josh Your Friends.. Who Are Your Best Friends *: josh and sandy Can You Trust Them *: yeah Can They Trust You *: dho Whos The Craziest *: josh Funniest *:. both Dorkiest *: sandy of course Shyest *: josh Most Trustworthy *: josh Favorites Color *: Red and black Food *: Sushi Drink *: Beer Place *: my room Hangout *: gaaa Store *: gaaa i dunno What Do Your Prefer For Your Lover Hair Color *: black or colorfull hair dye Short or Tall *: tall Eye Color *: I don't care Prep or Punk *: if you must.. punk Popular or Geek *: loser Lots of Friends or Loner *: loner jsut like me Fat or Skinny *: not to skinny Good Personailty or Good Looks *: personality Mean or Hott *: mean Sweet or Cute *: sweet Is Love Needed *: love is an excuse to get hurt lalalala Where Do You See Yourself In 10 Years In College *: yea What Job *: Equine scientist Kids *: no fucking way! Marriage *: gaaa not really Where Will You Live *: under a bridge most probably What Type Of House *: hmm How Many Kids *: 2 dogs 2 cats 6 horses This or That Pepsi or Coke *: coke Sprite or Sierra Mist *: Sprite Outside or In *: both Night or Day *: night Sunrise or Sunset *: sunset Was This Fun *: uh huh let me tell you about it the point of my daY" Still Bored *: yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssss im deef i am.---- |
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| To hear his voice is like GAAAA | |||
| 09:39pm 28/06/2004 | |||
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ok fuck the guy who said marylin manson died! if taht guy would of dies i would of died along with the news!... anyway My brother got me lord of the rings for the xbox is soo fuckign cool ive been playign it for the last 4 hours it was fun but it got on my nerves when the lil fucks started killing me... JOSH CALLED ME TODAY!! JOSH CALLED ME TODAY!!! I WAS HAPPY!!!!!!!!! to hear his voice just made me feal so fucking great!!! i love him so fuckign much!!! and i miss him like crazy!!!! and gaaaaaaaaaa he called!! gaaaa!!!!!!! thats all for now folksss |
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| 01:43pm 27/06/2004 | |||
| some asshole living in new york jusyt told me that he heard marilyn manson is dead... since i live on the other side of the world news like this gets here late... anyone please confirm if this is real or not.... | |||
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| Im an idiot... instead of aborting all the stupid ideas my head has i let myself submerge insanly | ||||
| 10:22am 27/06/2004 | ||||
I could cut myself deep with a knife and ignore my mind while i enjoy the pain btu then again i got forced to promise i wont do it... Tomorrow i might go out and about with pablo.. do a couple of thingds just to get some air nad not to be locked in my house all day..plus im planning on doing something but im not sure yet moahahaha... other than taht their is nothing to update... |
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blah| Drunken here the idea of cuting myself sounds more and more provoking... | ||||
| 02:02pm 26/06/2004 | ||||
Maybe Im pathetic and take shit to the other level... or mybe its just the way my life will go no matter what...josh left on thursday and yes I miss him like fuck, I have never fallen for rela for a guy and now he comes along and I cant help it I love him in a real way...I wrote him a couple of emails and his respond hit me straight... maybe its the way he talks on the internet but i just felt that he responded my email just cause i sent him a couple if i wouldnt of sent him anyhting i bet he wouldnt of writen... maybe im selfish and mad cause he doesnt miss me as bad as i miss him... he is having such a blast taht the last thing that must come to his head is the depressed bitch he goes out with... then again all this must be in my head and i might be totally wrong..... my mind keeps telling me that he only misses me when he is lonley the rest of the time he just forgets about it.... but i keep kickign myself telling my self its not true i know he doesnt go on like that ... but how can i know?... maybe he will read this and maybe he will find it unfair... but who can blame me? im scared shitless ill lose him... I fell for him and I dont want to get hurt by losing him... and then again i doubt im making any sence being half drunk and all.. i love josh... life sucks... ive been studying and doing good... horses is going good... I saw a movie called monster I hate it i found it boring.. and things with my brother are going ok... |
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drunk| I wouldnt let you walk away ....Without hearing what I have to say | ||||
| 10:10am 24/06/2004 | ||||
Today Josh left to Texas then he is going to Cleveland, Ohio. And my brother gets here today at 7:00pm I wont go to the airport.. Im sick as fuck plus i have to go riding tomorrow early and he wants to take us out to dinner so I cant make it... Im reading "the Da Vncis code" its a fucking good book.. plus Ive learnt a bunch of shit about Da Vinci that had no clue about. I havent done much Ive gone to the movies a couple of times I saw Shrek 2 it was okay... it had its funny parts I still say the first one was better... I also saw underworld it must be the first movie with vampires and supernatural creatures that i dont find GREAT... It was good but the story a such needed to be fixed in some parts... but the special effects were awsome and the main actress whatever her fuckign name is IS HOT at least in this movie she looked hot.. i didnt like how she looked in van helsing... I ahev 3 weeks to myself almost so i guess i will be studying a lot.. |
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sick| You can not kill what you did not create... | ||||
| 11:47am 20/06/2004 | ||||
Anyway it's been a long time since Ive updated this shit so here goes and im back for good I'll be commenting on entries again and updating my journal.... I've been studying.. I want to finish this years homeschooling booksto get it over with and decide where I go form here... Hopefully my parents will get paid and I will go to borading school and finish my schooling in a nice fucking way and get somewhere in college... I decided I wanted to study Equine Sciences.. I had to delete everything on my computer so I have to download all the stuff for the digi cam and then Ill put pictures up again.. plus sandy has some pictures from thursday so if she sends them to me I will put them up... Sandy got dragged to virginia her grandad was not going to let her stay for love nor money he even called his lawyer on her its actually funny how far that guy would go... Josh leaves in 4 days to Texas and then on to Ohio... and my brother gets her ein 4 days also... I've been horse riding and doing good Im happy with me and buck.. I got my hand on the latest Slipknot cd and Im in love with it.. Josh also copied Kittie, TBS and dropkick murphies for me so im happy with my cds... and my brother is bringing me Lacuna coil so music to my ears!!!!!!..... And yeah in all this time i ahvent updated this is all that has happend I have such a boring fucking life... |
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| 10:11pm 12/06/2004 | ||||
umm okay this week ive been studying like avery good girl...*pats on head to me*... ummm i had a huge ass fight with josh on thursday i thought it was over but lucky me it wasent.... Ummm Ive had fun this weekend to long of a story to tell but it was an awsome fucking weekend... my brother comes down in a week and a bit.. buck hurt his leg so i wasent able to go to the horse show this weekend um damm it i really wanted to go to it... i guess ill go to the one in 3 weeks... ummm josh leaves the same day my brother gets here and sandy leave this week so im left on my own... im still looking for the desing for my tattoo its retty complicated i want a real weird one... my neck hurts like fuck... ummm umm ummm ummm ummm ummm umm thats all you need to know the rest ill know in my head.. |
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my computer broke down on me it wotn do shit so it will add more to me not updating until my dad lends me his to use.... ive been stufying my ass off and still will be for a while so excuse me for not commenting or updating i will not have much of a chance.,... I finally saw the day after tomorrow and i didnt like it at all... to me the movie sucked... i also saw dawn of the dead and the only thing i really really liked about that movie is the blooddddddd yummi bloood... anyway i better go till later |
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| 10:50am 05/06/2004 | |||
| wont update for a whi.le.. maybe next week.. dont miss me to much | |||
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| 12:27pm 03/06/2004 | |||
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Just a poem I read and liked.... BY: Wilfred Owen --Young British officer World War I War's is a joke for me and you, While we know such dreams are true. Out there, we've walked quite friendly up to death; Sat down and eaten with him, cool and bland, Pardoned his spilling mess-tins in our hand. We've sniffed the green thick odour of his breath. Our eyes wept, but our corage didnt writhe. He's spat at us with bullets and he's coughed Shapnel. We chorused when he sang aloft; We whistled while he shaved us woth his scythe. Oh, death was never enemy of ours! We laughed at him, we laughed with him, old chum. No soldiers paid to kick againt his powers. We laughed knowing that better men would come, And greater wars; when each proud fighter brags He wars on death for lives; not men for flags. |
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| 10:13pm 01/06/2004 | |||
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THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY: - My horse - my dog - my parents and my brotehr when we get along - sandy - josh - when my brother leaves an email or a comment wanting to help me - the sound of my fav bands on my stereo at high volume - a day where assholic panamenians just let me be - my bed - When i do good at horses - ice cream - a good movie - kinky photographs - marylin manson's photography work - everytime i learn something new - when i get along with my brother - when i dont smoke and quit smoking for 2 weeks in a row - when i see myself and i see someone worth it and not a useless piece of meet - when josh does his random shit and makes me laugh.. his kisses and hugs - when i turn hyper and perv with sandy - cuting myself when i feel like just droping dead THINGS THAT FUCK ME UP - The hate i have for myself - The hate i have developed for most people - When im in my depresed moods i get on my own nerves - when panamenians give me a hard fuckign time for their fun - When people put me down thinking there better then me when in real life they know im above them - when i feel stupid - when i look like shit - the idea of having a life thats going nowhere - WHEN I DO HORRIBLE AT HORSE RIDING - when i fight with josh - when i think that sandy being my best friend doesnt trust me as much as i trust her - sandys grand dad - when i smoke to cool my pissed off self down - when i moan - when my brother and i fight ove rthe most stupid randomess shit - when world war 4 breaks out at my house - the idea of loosing my horse or my dog - the idea of being a useless shithead - when i break a promise - when the music i dont like is in my ears - the day i got informed davey havok lost his voice over some treatment - the days i look liek shit - the days i get beaten up by gurads for no apparent fuckign reason - when i movie sucks balls - when i wake up in the mornings having to face one more depressing fucked up day ... - bad feelings that something shity is going to happen - panamenian weather hot and humid - ignorance im sourronded by it - joshs parents at times - people people and err people |
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| OMG IS THIS AN UPDATE?!?!?!??! hell yes it is!! wooooooww | ||||
| 09:51pm 01/06/2004 | ||||
Note to miss. navy sandy: I didnt read sam's emails!!! HA to you.. you were wrong... why you may ask?!?!?!?... 1- im to lazy..2- sam is past news 3- the navy guys are nicer then sam... Anyway yeah ummm... you want to know what i did yesterday!!!!! YES??!?!?! I did....... N-O-T-H-I-N-G i played SSX-triky and amazingly became good at the damn fucking video game normally im useless.... Josh came over for a while we talked he was unpissed!! i think he is bi-polar or something like that... UMMM my new maid is awsome i was talking to her for a long ass time she is facinated by the existance of sandy ITS WWWWEEEEIIIRDDDD.... ANd today... I went riding considering we almost did nothing it all went good good... umm I have another horse show in a couple of weeks and i expect me to kick some ass and finally im going back up to my level bit by bit (thus another reason im all happy)... Josh came over it was rainign all day half of my house became a swiming pool itself then in the middle of the storm i just jumped in to the pool sandy arrived with FOOOODDDDD but first i ahd to put her in the water... we threw each other in for a while bla bla bla im already bored of talkign this shit when im hyper i sound like a bimbo caput... anyway i had fun and sandy FINALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY opend her mouth she FINALLY told me somethign!! ALELUYA ALELUYA ALELYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa anyway bla im out |
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