mood: blank music: none

Moving to LiveJournal. No more to say. Here's the link:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/crystal_one/

or

Flightless Seraphim
version eight .. winged breath

mood: amused music: Isshouni Utao ~ Kero (CCS)

1. Take your LJ username and replace each letter with the corresponding number (A=1, B=2, etc.)

C   3
R   18
Y   25
S   19
T   20
A   1
L   12

O   15
N   14
E   5

2. Add all the numbers together to create a kind of super number.
132

3. Make a note of the first digit of this number, then add the digits of the number together.
33

4. Find the post of this number in your LJ. If you don't have that many posts, add the digits together again. Keep doing so until the number is smaller than your pathetic number of posts.

5. Take the digit you noted in step 3, and count that many words into the post.
Got 

6. Use the resulting word in a Google Image Search, and select a picture from the first page.

Ha ha ha... Thanksies Ann.

mood: calm music: Deep Relaxation ~ Meditation music

For some strange idea I've decided to make a list of reccomended books. Yay me. No paticular order...

• The Beguilers (Kate Thompson)
  All I can say about this book is that it is AMAZING. A fantastic story that I can easily relate too. Don't let the length fool you (only about 180 pages), it's worth reading.
  
• Wren to the Rescue (Sherwood Smith)
  I really liked this story. Only the first in a series of who knows how many. Hopefully I'll be able to get those as well.
  
• The Sight (David Clement-Davies)
  The best book ever written, there's no doubt. What I especially love is the symbolism in this story... and the writing itself.
  
• Firebringer (David Clement-Davies)
  Another masterpiece by David. It's just as well written as The Sight, if not better, and possibly even more exciting at times. Unique as well... I haven't seen many books about deer.
  
• Through Wolf's Eyes (Jane Lindskold)
  I loved this story because I could relate to it a little. I loved the character's personalities as well...
  
• Warriors (Erin Hunter)
  I've read the first two books in the series... it's another very unique story and I loved the characters.
  
• Song of the Lioness Quartet (Tamora Pierce)
  Certainly my favorite in the Tortal books... The idea was great.
  
• The Imortals Quartet (Tamora Pierce)
  See above ^_^
  
• Protector of the Small Quartet (Tamora Pierce)
  See above ^_^"
  
• Circle of Magic Quartet (Tamora Pierce)
  See above again... ^o^
  
• The Circle Opens Quartet (Tamora Pierce)
  Okay, so I love them all!! ^_^
  
• The Unicorn Chronicles (Bruce Coville)
  Beautiful... that's all I can say.
  
• Spellfall (Katherine Roberts)
  It was interesting, although it was a little short. I really did like the idea though.
  
• His Dark Materials Trilogy (Phillup Pullman)
  A classic. If you don't read this you sould explode. I can't even begin to say anything at all.
  
• Harry Potter Series (J.K. Rowling)
  When I finally read them, I liked the books. Well illustrated.
  
• Witch Child (Celia Rees)
  I could relate! I love the history in this!
  
• Ragweed (Avi)
  Cute, fun and exciting.I fell in love with it.
  
• Poppy and Rye (Avi)
  Above.^_^
  
• Poppy (Avi)
  Up Up UP ^_^'
  
• The Supernaturalist (Eoin Collar)
  Okay, so I'm not finished... but it's GREAT!
  
• Ella Enchanted (Gail Carson Levine)
  Do not trust the movie they supposedly made. There are no ninjas, she can't do karate and there is certainly no evil ruler... I HATE it when they ruin good books. And this is one of the best I've ever read! Seven reads and counting... ^_^
  
• Music of the Dolphins (Karen Heese)
  Don't pay attention to the font size at the beginning of the book... it's an amazing story that I just love.
  
• The Firebringer Trilogy (Meredith Ann Pierce)
  WONDERFUL! Meep!! All three!!!
  
• The Ghost of Opalina (Peggy Bacon)
  Very old book, but I liked it nonetheless.
  
• Animorph Series (K.A. Applegate)
  Heehee... I really like this series... ^_^
  
• Black Beauty (Ann Sewell)
  Couldn't leave this out now could I?

mood: calm music: Chance ~ unknown JPOP

| everyone knows your name but, just say it for the record?
You may call me Laurel. And yes, it would be disturbing if everyone knew your name, but literally, they do. *grin*

| when your next birthday rolls around, how old will you be?
Tomorrow I will be 15. ^_^

| who is the closest person to you in your life?
Ann

| when was the last time you felt special?
Hm... whenever I do an acurate reading I really realize how I'm helping. ^_^

| do people pile compliments on you?
Heh... sometimes it can be overwhelming but I can't say it's not nice sometimes...

| are the compliments usually good or bad?
How can a compliment be bad? Meh, well... good I suppose, but they don't always see deep enough to really know.

| name one thing that is bothering you.
My foot is asleep.

| who are your 3 close friends?
I have a lot of close friends... Ann would be my closest though.

| who's someone you wish you've never met?
Well... each experience I have had gives me new insight into things I do not understand, or have thought I once did but learned more though knowing that person... so... no one.

| one thing that sucks about where you live.
Too much yellow light, can't see the stars at night. (ooo... that ryhmed!)

| name 3 things you wish you had.
More Manga... I am in desperate need of Manga... -_-  Books... and maybe some guided meditation.

| what's one thing you would eliminate from your life?
I'm not really sure... temptation to eat chocolate maybe... messes up my senses.

| have you ever loved someone of the opposite sex?
I have never truly loved in that way.

| if not, do you think you'll eventually fall in love?
Of course.

| what's 3 things you like about yourself?
I suppose I'm understanding... I can heal, I love that even if it does suck... and... I think I have a great voice. ^_^

| what are 3 things you dislike about yourself?
I have a tendancy to think aloud (often times I forget if I have said something outloud or not...), I'm very bad at math, and I am easily overwhelmed.

| if you could be hooked on 3 movies for a whole year, which movies would you choose?
Monty Python and the Holy Grail (I could watch that for the next fifty years of my life and not get bored. I'm serious! ...stop laughing... >_<), the Matrix and... CCS movie?

| name everyone who's online on your buddy list right now.
*sigh*

| name one celeb who you think is beautiful!
Uh... celebrity? *blink* I really don't know any...

| name one celeb who you think is ugly!
Um... I guess I can agree with Orlando Bloom, but mostly I think he's a bad actor.

| on a scale from 1 to 10, how would you rate yourself in the following categories?

1.) sense of humor/personality :: 9?
2.) looks/body :: 6
3.) energy level :: Really depends. Could be any level at any time.
4.) likable level :: being Cusp makes this hard... 5 sometimes... 8 or 9 at others?
5.) interesting level :: Depends on who I'm talking to! ^_^ 6-8 maybe
6.) how good of a friend you are :: 7-10?
7.) dateable :: ... uh... I'm lost on that. I have no idea.
8.) responsible :: 9
9.) respectful :: depends once again. probably 7 or 8
10.) intelligence :: really depends on what I'm dealing with. Knowledge is my thing, but I'm good with emotions as well. 9 maybe.

| if you could lay a big sweet kiss on someone, who would it be?
uh...

| are you more of a teaser or cuddling person when it comes to being around the opposite sex?
I really have no idea...

| should it be the guy or the girl who makes the first move?
Perferably not me.

| when it comes to relationships you have most of what?
...? uh...

| is there anything you'd take back from a relationship your were/are in?
The fact that I initiated it, perhaps...

| what's the longest you've had "strong feelings" for someone?
Never in this timeframe... otherwise, eternity without measure.

| when was the last time you bought something?
Today... I bought dental gum. ^_^

| when was the last you had homemade soup?
Wow.. not since Christmas.

| remember those early 90's shows? what were some of your favorites?
Rocket Robin Hood!!! Wait... that's older... heh

| so, what's wrong with the world today?
Currently? Humans are still blind... third eyes are opening, but it's a painfully slow process for most. I can feel the eyes openeing, but most of them refuse to recognize the troubles of the world... this bigest problem? They don't know they're killing themselves.

| would you like to see a women become president?
Obviously you're not a wom*A*n, but it would be nice. I suppose I'm biased though... but who isn't?

| if you have a favorite... what was your favortie president?
Prime Minister for me, but I rarely paid any attention in Politics.

| when your around the opposite sex, what do you think they notice first about you?
Likely whatever I'm doing. -_-

| are any of your friends in a serious, long relationship?
This would mean opposite sex, yes? Well, not that I know of.

| have you ever been in a week or not even long relationship?
What? Elaborate...?

| name one person you try and look out for.
I do that for a lot of people...

| something you are really pissed off about.
Being patronized... then placed far above the clouds.

| what kind of clothes do you look best in?
Comfortable ones...? uh...

| you know how guys like to "hook up" their cars and make them look nice? what do you think is the best car to do all that stuff with?
... *fake smile* well.. I like blue cars! *glare*

| what kind of car best fits you?
I don't drive, so I have no comparison.

| what type of school situation are you in right now?
Catholic High School.

| what year are you in and when do you graduate?
I am going into grade 10, and I will be graduating in 2007... right?

| what will your gown and cap look like?
... like a gown and cap?

| will you be in the beginning, middle or end of getting your diploma?
uh?

| after your graduation, what will you be doing in life?
College probably... looking at teaching philosophy or becomming a professor.

| name one thing you will miss about the past.
I missed not knowing reality for what it was. *chuckle*

| name 3 things friends are good for.
Understanding your insanity, sharing in it, and occasionally just living as moments come. ^_^

| name 3 things the opposite sex is good for.
I completely agree Ann, repopulating the planet and... uh... well... repopulating the planet. ^_^'

| have you ever read someones personal diary?
Meep! *is reminded of Kendra N.*

| what were you doing 5 hours ago?
Just waking up... yes, I know it was 12:00!

| what will you be doing 5 hours from now?
10pm... Probably watching TV.

| what holiday you are looking forward to?
My Birthday! ^_^ What? It's a holiday to me!

| are you the kind of person who goes out to those cool clubs, looks for the opposite sex and their digits?
*is confused* I don't get it. I really dont't... *pause* Really? That's weird... I'm highly distrurbed...

| do you usually try and do things your friends want you to do or do you try and stay semi-independent?
There is nothing more I can do but be what comes easiest: me.

| if you could turn back time, where would you go?
Before life, just to check on some theories.

mood: awake music: Figlio Perduto ~ Sarah Brightman

Cancer
June 21 - July 21
"You will find yourself right in line with your warrior instinct today, dear Cancer, which is reminding you to maintain alignment with your dreams. The tricky part is how exactly you are going to plan your attack, so that there is an equal balance of give versus take. Today's prevailing energies may have you caught between a rock and a hard place. Sometimes a harsh, outward-directed, argumentative approach is the only way to push through the current roadblock."

. . . "caught between a rock and a hard place." Better not go hiking today then. You know, I think they make these things confusing so people won't know for sure if it sounds like their life.

And this, "Sometimes a harsh, outward-directed, argumentative approach is the only way to push through the current roadblock" That's not saying much is it? Sometimes, current. . . wow, I have no idea what that means. ^_^ I'm glad I don't listen to this crap.

=Laurel

mood: excited music: Around this Corner ~ Sarah Harmer

YAY! IT's ALMOST MY BIRTHDAY!!! ^_^

Oh, and it's Canada Day! But yay, me birthday! I'll be 15 on the 12th of THIS MONTH! Mostly, I'm looking forward to the books I'll be buying. There's little else I'd like to get... except maybe better telekinetic abilities. Damn those spoons... taunting me!

Well,  'tis all I have to say... unless you like semi-realistic human RPGs online. ^_^ Then have fun with Indigo

=Laurel

mood: infuriated music: Sound of the Wind ~ FF : CC

Yay for uniforms!

And if you are NOT empathic, that was about as sarcastic as humanly possible.

OH MY GOSH!!! (by the way, I only say 'gosh' when I'm pissed) I used to like the idea of uniforns in my school but now that I've seen and tried them on (I'll not mention the price yet) I've decided I  will do anything to kick the ass of whoever created/priced these peices of crap.

First of all, the skirt is not a skirt. It's not even a kilt, for crap's sake! It's a SKORT! *feigns fear* NOOOOOOO! Why they are allowed to call it a skirt, I don't know. Lying butt-faced monkey-butted... BUTT-BUTTS! The pants are uncomfortable (and 2% spandex, I must add *nods*), the shirts are HUGE (X-Small is big on me) and the PRICES! AHG!

Listen to some of the prices:

• Green-plaid "skirt" = $79.95 each, without tax
• Black/Khaki casual pants = $42.95 each, without tax
• Green "zip-polo" (a gap-like sweater) = $39.95 each, without tax
• Black/Green/White golf T-shirt = $24.95 each, without tax

I got a pair of pants, a "skirt", a zip-sweater, and two T-shirts. The end price was almost $300. Can anyone else say "I'm paying too frickin' much." I can just imagine the grade 12 students! Most of them have jobs that wouldn't pay for that AT ALL and they'll only be there for one year! Plus you can't substitute anything either, it all MUST be from this company.

It doesn't change the differences between the rich and poor kids. The poor kid will have faded clothes, and only one set while the rick kids will have a set for every day of the week! So if that's their goal... nope. And teasing? They'll find other things to make fun of. People will still rebel, you can count on it. If it gets worse, I will be one of them. Bright pink socks you say? GIMME! Painful to the eyes, you say? GIMME!!!

And who gets the money from all this? My school? NOOOO, the school board. Sound fair? I didn't think so!

Auhg... I'm sorry, but before you all run away killing people... THIS IS RATED R for RANT! Butt-faced monkey-butted Butt-Butts... *glare*

=Laurel

mood: moody music: None

Cancer
June 21 - July 21
You might find that words aren't the best way to communicate things today, dear Cancer. Body language and the sense of touch and taste are much more effective. You will find that overall, your senses will be heightened and the smell of the restaurant down the street will be making your taste buds water from 5 blocks away. Let your feet follow your nose and go enjoy a good meal tonight with someone special.

This is ridiculus. If anyone were to read that, they would pay more attention to their senses. Sure, they'd notice smell more, but it would be because of the horoscope, not the other way around as claimed. I noticed no change in the effectiveness of my senses today. I didn't smell any restaurants either. And enjoying a good meal is nice for anyone.

These never apply to me, no horoscope does.

mood: angry music: None

Why do people expect so much from me? As an Indigo, I chose this life before I had it. I knew every possibility. Now that I have it, I must let go of that knowledge. Within those possibilities, was there ever a chance that we could teach them? Can we show them they are just like us? Will they listen?

People tell me I am amazingly psychic, that logic says I shouldn't have this power so young (truth is, logic says I shouldn't have this power at all). I am the loop-hole, the exception, the future. The future... when will they finally see that the future will never come? This future they wish for cannot come, because it is. And when something is, it cannot be an "is not". They ARE us and we ARE them. They watch me heal, or do a reading, or tell them their thoughts and they say, "I wish I could do that. I'm so glad the new kids have come to lead us there." Yes, like sheep I suppose. You will follow wherever we lead...?

Then why don't you HEAR us? We are leading in the dark, and if you don't listen you can't find us. So listen now and keep listening until the light is reached where you can SEE what we see. YOU ARE ALREADY CAPABLE OF ALL THINGS WE DO. We are not the distant future. We are the present. We are you. We ARE.

Telepathy? You already have it.
Empathy? Got that too.
Telekinesis? Just believe, 'cause it's already there.
God, you could FLY if you wanted to!

"Silly child, doesn't know what she says." Ahg. You put me on a pedistal and then pretend I am at your feet? Are you that blind? Things don't work that way! If what you say is true, then we are the personification of knowledge... how could we "not know" anything? Well, there are things. Get over it.

Foolish humans, don't know what they're doing...

=Laurel

(Warning: Rated 'R' for Rant. Too late you say? I don't give a damn.)

mood: relaxed music: Sound of the Wind ~ Final Fantasy: Crystal Chronicals

Well, my English exam is tomorrow and I haven't bookmarked a single quote yet. I just have no energy for this. I just know I'm going to be lazy and completely wing the test... but do I care? Nope not really. I remember when I was enthusiastic to come to highschool... now I don't care. I guess the Summer made me forget how drained one can get. I'm excited for next year and it's weird to know I'll be just as I am now by the end of that one.

I created a Dream Journal online. All I need my real one for is instant memories when I wake up. I've noticed some strange patterns in my dreams as well. The link is on the side thee, under the avatar, but it's 'friends only'.

=Laurel

mood: apathetic music: Amazing Grace ~ Hayley Westenra

I keep thinking I hear my name being called. I actually ran downstairs because I thought there was soemone at the door because of it. Perhaps it because I'm home alone today, or perhaps it's the fae playing a trip on me. I wouldn't be surprised, knowing the Piskies...

Well, my next exam is Friday and I'm certainly not looking forward to it. It's English, so of course I'll have to write a character sketch from Romeo and Juliet... I really don't enjoy writing essays or character sketches in class. I don't know what it is, but I don't like it. And my mark suffers for it... at least I'm doing well right now; it won't affect my final mark too much. I just can't wait until it's done and I can finally have the summer to myself...

HA! I wish...

=Laurel

mood: shocked music: None

Oh...

My...

GOD!

Spelunking is a REAL word!!! *reads from dictionary* "Spelunker; one who explors caves"

I can't believe it!!!

=Laurel

mood: content music: Heaven ~ Hayley Westenra

Really Long Survey (over 200)
What is your name?: Laurel
Are you named after anyone?: Nope
What's your screename?: Laurel
Would you name a child of yours after you?: Nah...
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Uh... my parents never actually settled on a male name... I guess I would be 'Work in Progress' or 'That Kid' ^_^
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: um.. I dunno...
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: Lorl, Lorel, Laral, Loral, ect...
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: No! I like my name! ^_^

Basics
Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: yep
If not, do you want to be?: u
Birthdate:: July 12
Your age:: 14
Age you act:: It depends on what I'm doing really.
Age you wish you were:: I'm happy being my age
Your height:: 5' something...
Eye color:: Usually green now, but they change to blue every once in a while.
Happy with it?: Yep. Witch's Eyes run in my family...
Hair color:: Dirty Blonde
Happy with it?: I've always loved black or red hair... but I like my colours...
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty
Your living arrangement:: My mom
Your family:: Yes, I have one ^_^
Have any pets?: Three cats, two budgies, one dog, two PIGEONS, and a whole bunch-o fishies
Whats your job?: none yet
Piercings?: none, not even my ears...
Tattoos?: None
Obsessions?: Science, the stars, night
Addictions?: Uh...healing energy maybe? ^_^
Do you speak another language?: Not an existing one. *grin*
Have a favorite quote?: "Not all who wander are lost"
Do you have a webpage?: Well, there's this.

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: I try to.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Part of me is.
Do you have any secrets?: Of course
Do you hate yourself?: Not really.
Do you like your handwriting?: No! My handwriting is really messy...
Do you have any bad habits?: procrastination and biting my finger nails...
What is the compliment you get from most people?: People say I'm nuts...
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Knowledge of Infinity...
What's your biggest fear?: Not being able to help...
Can you sing?: Yep
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: HA
Are you a loner?: Yep
What are your #1 priorities in life?: Knowing, Understanding and reaching my final goal
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: It depends... if I were another person, would I be an accepting person? Would I have grown up knowing things like I did now? Would I have the same experiences?
Are you a daredevil?: No...
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: I'm pretty sure I sometimes do things for attention...
Are you passive or agressive?: passive in some ways... others... well, Indigo could use some help.
Do you have a journal?: yup
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: I'm connected to the All That Is (not to mention all that ever was and will be... or will not be)...
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I would have remembered ealier
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Yep... I think so
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Of course
Do you think life has been good so far?: Yeah
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: All things have a purpose, to know the purpose is to know your reason 
What do you like the most about your body?: Eyes
And least?: I'm really skinny now... all my clothes are too big...
Do you think you are good looking?: I have no idea really.
Are you confident?: sometimes
What is the fictional character you are most like?: I can't really think of one...
Are you perceived wrongly?: Of course so, all the time.

Do You...
Smoke?: nope
Do drugs?: certainly not.
Read the newspaper?: Heh, no...
Pray?: Yep, as much as I can
Go to church?: No, everywhere is my church. I don't need a human building to talk to God
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Just long enough to find out if I know them
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yep!
Take walks in the rain?: Whenever I can
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Well, I have to
Drive?: No... too young
Like to drive fast?: I dunno...

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: I guess, it does it's job well.
Hurt yourself?: Nope
Been out of the country?: Nope
Eaten something that made other people sick?: Well once I put WAY too much salt in cookies...
Been in love?: Not truly...
Done drugs?: NO
Gone skinny dipping?: nope
Had a medical emergency?: Not really
Had surgery?: No
Ran away from home?: No, when I was younger I thought about it a few times though. I wanted to find 'the place I came from' again...
Played strip poker?: nope
Gotten beaten up?: Nope
Beaten someone up?: Nope
Been picked on?: Constantly
Been on stage?: A few times, yes.
Slept outdoors?: yeah!
Thought about suicide?: No
Pulled an all nighter?: Nope
If yes, what is your record?: n/a?
Gone one day without food?: For 'Think Fast' I did 25 hours! ^_^
Talked on the phone all night?: No, but I bet I could do it...
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: No.
Slept all day?: Yep!
Killed someone?: Who answers this question with Yes?
Made out with a stranger?: no!
Had sex with a stranger?: NO!
Thought you're going crazy?: Forgetting the fact that I AM crazy, yes, once or twice.
Kissed the same sex?: kissed my mom? Teehee
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: No.
Been betrayed?: Not that I can think of
Had a dream that came true?: Yep
Broken the law?: Nope
Met a famous person?: I don't think so...
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Nope
On purpose?: No no no!
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: Nope. I still have their secrets
Stolen anything?: Nope...
Been on radio/tv?: nope
Been in a mosh-pit?: A whaty-what-what?
Had a nervous breakdown?: Not that I can remember
Bungee jumped?: nope
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes

Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: Not TRUE life, like us, but yes. The kind of life that animals have, a few with minds like ours
Miracles?: Yes
Astrology?: HA
Magic?: The magic of belief perhaps.
God?: Yes
Satan?: Yes
Santa?: I dunno?
Ghosts?: They're only imprinted energy signatures
Luck?: To a certain degree
Love at first sight?: Sometimes
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: Yep
Witches?: Modern day ones
Easter bunny?: ^_^
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Sure
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: amn those leprechans... Always getting away... 
Do you wish on stars?: My stars

Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: Not really. Heaven is out mind's creation. Whatever we like will be there. Hell is non-existant, as will we be if we so desire
Do you think God has a gender?: Not really, but I am more inclined to say 'he', likely because of my upbringing
Do you believe in organized religion?: No
Where do you think we go when we die?: That's our choice really...

Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Probably some at school, personally no... But can I be sure? No.
Who is your best friend?: Ann! ^_^
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Ann
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: Can't really remember any. heh! It must not have been very good! ^_^
Your favourite inside joke?: People say my jokes don't make sense...
Thing you're picked on most about?: Being different
Who's your longest known friend?: Ann... hmm...
Newest?: Kaity
Shyest?: LIZ
Funniest?: Ann. Together we scare people. ^_^
Sweetest?: Hm...
Closest?: Ann
Weirdest?: My invisible gerbils... they explode a lot.
Smartest?: Ann. *Nods*
Ditziest?: Steph! heehee
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Ann
Last person you talked to online?: Ann
Who do you talk to most online?: Ann
Who are you on the phone with most?: ANN!
Who do you trust most?: Ann
Who listens to your problems?: Ann, if I have any
Who do you fight most with?: Kaity
Who's the nicest?: eep... I dunno?
Who's the most outgoing?: Uh?
Who's the best singer?: Me...? (Hopefully Ann cannot sing... She's so good at everything else!)
Who's on your shit-list?: Huh?
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Uh...?
Who's your second family?: Moop?
Do you always feel understood?: Not always
Who's the loudest friend?: Kaity *I am the ghost of Kaity's singing! OOOOOoooOOOOooooOOO*
Do you trust others easily?: Not really
Who's house were you last at?: Mine, teehee
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: Me! *hugs self*
Do your friends know you?: Ann knows most of me
Friend that lives farthest away:: Ann... : P

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: No
What do you find romantic?: Hmm... something they make themselves?
Turn-on?: Intelligent conversations
Turn-off?: Doesn't treat me like an individual
First kiss?: Haven't
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: That's a confusing sentence... but I would feel bad.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out: Of course
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: It isn't? m...
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: I wouldn't know, I don't usually care
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: I don't know
What is best about the opposite sex?: They can be nice
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: They're men... can I say anything more?
What's the last present someone gave you?: A book
Are you in love?: Probably not
Do you consider your significant other hot?: Hm?

Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: A witch in a houe in Okotoks. She was lonely, poor thing...
You wanted to kill?: I dunno
That you laughed at?: Kaity ha ha ha
That laughed at you?: Jess
That turned you on?: Hm?
You went shopping with?: My mom *hates clothes shopping...*
That broke your heart?: None?
To disappoint you?: Um?
To ask you out?: N/A
To make you cry?: Hm... I dun memember?
To brighten up your day?: ME! ^_^
That you thought about?: ME! ^_^
You saw a movie with?: Haven't in a while
You talked to on the phone?: Ann
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Don't remember
You saw?: Steph?
You lost?: Hm?

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: No
Will it be with your significant other?: No
Or some random person?: No
What are you wearing right now?: Clothes!
Body part you're touching right now:: HM?
What are you worried about right now?: How long this will take...
What book are you reading?: Avalon
What's on your mousepad?: Grey...
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: a goldfish and a half
Are you tired?: Nope
Are you talking to anyone online?: Nope
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: Nope
Are you lonely or content?: content
Are you listening to music?: JPOP! ^_~

Really Long Survey (over 200) brought to you by BZOINK!

=Laurel

mood: annoyed music: Pokarekare Ana ~ Hayley Westenra

Cancer
June 21 - July 21
Here is just the kind of day artists dream about, dear Cancer. After yet another lukewarm reception of your artwork, one of the most influential agents shows up and offers to place your paintings in the most prestigious museums in the world! This is just one example of the extraordinary events that could be in store for you today. Whatever your pursuits, you have a very good chance of success!

That was my astrology thing for today. Is that not the stupidest thing you have ever read? These thinsg never seem to apply to me. I don't see how a HUGE groups of people from all over the world, in poverty and health could have something like that happen to them on the exact same day. Neither does that ever happen at all.

I urge all who believe this crap: STOP! It's stupid, and untrue. A future cannot be tracked and written down by a mortal mind. It's always changing. ALWAYS. There mine just changed, maybe yours did too.

God I hate astrology... lies are so distasteful.

=Laurel

mood: relaxed music: Lucky Star ~ Pretear

(WARNING: This entry is rated SR for SLIGHTLY RANTY. It should not be read by anyone. Ever.)

IN SCHOOL, I WILL NOT MISS...

• The Britney's constant talking (Britney H. and Britney B. are two perfectly popular prep-blondes that can't seem to shut their stupid little mouths and quit talking about things NO ONE else wants to hear... *inhale*)
• Homework that does not have to do with science
• French
• Waking up early
• Going to bed early ^_^
• Kaity's singing! (she thinks she can see in Japanese... *whispering* She doesn't even know the words... *shifty look*)
• Having to sit through math class hearing about how much pot everyone smoked that night...
• Having to sit through math class without murdering someone
• Cramming for tests
• Spending all of my free time attempting to finish my homework
• Stressing over science tests (though I will miss science tests)
• The crowds
• Sabrina's MOOCHING!!
• Playing Tests in Music

I WILL MISS...

• Science class
• Writing crazy poems in Geography class
• Writing Mad Libs while I'm supposed to be doing work
• CHEESUS!
• The epidermically-challanged moose, skitzophrenic goldfish and the Rancid Rat Boys
• Making fun of Kaity and her hat... and her singing... and her cartoon dog-flavoured-gay boyfriend...
• Mornings of Playing Tests when I would suffer from lack of air getting to my brain because of too much practising
• Having somewhere to go when I get bored
• Pasta Salad... : (
• Music class
• Very amusing bus-rides

Ahh... I will miss school... *sigh*

=Laurel

mood: tired music: Prism ~ Card Captor Sakura

I had another playing test today. I was extremely nervous (though once again I had a few high notes to hit, so it wasn't all that bad) I almost fainted because I practised too much... once again little air was getting to my brain and three times I forgot B flat... Plus, I chose to do a song I didn't know how to do.

It was called, "A Mozart Melody"

. . .

Don't look so impressed. It was actually "Baa, Baa Black Sheep" with a different name.

Have you ever noticed the "Aplhabet song", "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" and "Baa, Baa Black Sheep" are all the same...? Well they are and they're freaking hard to remember on the Flute!

=Laurel

mood: RANTING music: This Love ~ Sarah Brightman

(WARNING: This entry may not be suitible for younger or annoying people. Reader discretion is advised. Rated R for Rant.)

I had a bad day today, and so, to help relieve me of my pain I'm taking it out on others. You so much as think 'that's not very nice' and I'll bite your face off... I've already done it, I'm unpredictable! BOO!

Anyways. Things I hate:

• People who pretend to know how something works when they really don't.
• People who accept that they are stupid and embrace it for the sake of being to lazy to improve work habits.
• People who ridicule the intelligent because of jealousy AND will do nothing to impove their work habits.
• People who join in when someone is being made fun of JUST to be accepted.
• People who say something smells gross and then get really close to smell it then pull back and complain.
• People who refuse to accept change.
• People who whine but do nothing to improve the situation.
• People who say they are depressed only to gain pity or attention from those around.
• People who attempt to invite themselves over to your home. Over and over. and still haven't gotten a clue...
• People who will not admit when they are wrong.
• People who ridicule others when they are uncomfortable.
• People who base everything on how a person looks the FIRST time they see them.
• People who pout when things don't turn out as they wanted.
• People who pretend they like someone only to hurt them in some way later.
• People who do no work at all and then are confused/mad/blame it on the teacher when they get a low mark or fail.
• People who are extremely smart but say they're stupid or act that way just to have attention.
• People who are proud of getting detentions/suspensions/expulsions
• People who think they can get anything they want because they are popular.
• People who expect others to bow to them because of popularity.
• People who expect others to fear them because of popularity.
• People who bow down to and/or fear the popular people.
• People who do drungs/smoke/drink so they can be popular.
• People who will not stand up for themselves.
• People who are bullied and will not admit it for fear of being bullied more.
• People who blame their own mistakes on others.
• People who say they're fat when they're perfectly normal weight.
• People who are overweight, complain about it, and look for pity.
• People who say they are fat to gain compliments.
• People who label others.
• People who live up to their label to be accepted/popular.
• People who are racist.
• People who are afraid of things because they don't understand.
• People who are popular and expect others to be grateful when they 'grace you with their presence,'
• People who complain about things they do themselves.
• People who expect others to bend/break when made fun of/bullied/harassed.
• People who join in on the stupid arguement of 'Leafs vs. Sens' and actually take it seriously.
• People who spread rumours just to see a fight.
• People who mooch off others for money constantly and never pay them back.
• People who take small things too seriously.
• People who try to convert another person because of religious differences.
• People who become gothic so they can be different than everyone else, but end up trying to hard and becoming just like everyone else.
• People who refuse to have a sense of humour.

I'm done. Finally. That's all I can remember right now. That'd all be the past two week's events. There's probably more and I'll add it as it comes...

I certainly feel better now...

(WARNING: This entry was written in a fit of rage/sadness/hate/helplessness/insanity. None of the material suggested above was meant as a personal attack, unless I know you personally then yes, yes it was. ^_^)

mood: Dreaming of Impossibilities music: I Can't Make You Love Me ~ Bonnie Raitt

I shouldn't be feeling this way. I shouldn't. I shouldn't. I can't.

For months I have tried to supress it all, the love... for a while I could keep up the face. For a while I was hiding and even I couldn't find myself. But now this game of hide and seek is over. I want to start another... but I cannot. For some reason my mind won't let me fool myself anymore. Traitorous brain.

His smile seems brighter... his laugh more uplifting... his jokes are funny even when they're not. Is this his doing? Has he changed his mind? Have things been reconsidered? Laurel, stop yourself now. This is a dream, a dream within reality. You're tricking yourself... things don't change just like that.

But then why do I feel like this again? Why have I released my true -although unwelcomed- thoughts...?

He doesn't see me. He doesn't know. He... him... his...

Why am I doing this? I'm a fool to think this way. I was a fool to begin with. I sound like a fool now.

Fool. I should stop this all now while I still have my mind.

=Laurel