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well, this will be my last public entry! because apparently I broke the law, I will restate this for the record as if I havent said it a thousand times. I hate this fucked up world and its fucked up laws. my parents are once again on a power trip and trying to seize everything I have, but Im not letting them. Im finally going to start fighting back, Im going to show them, I'll show you, that I dont need my parents, I dont need this shit, I dont need all this fucked up drama. It's so pointless, yet no matter what I do, as long as I live in that house, I cant escape it. I cant just get away, I cant just get over it, I cant have any rights as they say, BUT! I will show them that I can, I will show them what IM made of. I was once again suicidle last night as I cried myself to sleep, thinking that the only way to escape all this was to die, and thats all I wanted to do then, but as I came to the next morning, the meds had kicked in, I have come back from my meloncholy state, and now Im ready for this. I will show you all what I can do, I wont settle for what I think is wrong ANYMORE! I wont sit down and take the shit the world hands me, Im going to change things! Im SO SICK OF THIS!
but on a lighter note, I had such a fucking AWSOME time with laura yesterday! I seriously wanna hang out with her more. But who knows, her boyfriend might not be too happy about that, so I probly shouldnt, I dont know. But I do know that kathryn is usually busy, and then if she is busy, then I might be able to go hang out with laura, AND SHE GOT CABLE BACK! w00t! so yesterday I got a new shirt ( WAY too expensive, let me tell you! ) and we had lunch at westlake, while laura was looking for a bag. She lent me money till we got to an atm, apparently my atm card only works on wamu atm's so we couldnt buy her a bag, though she didnt even find one that she wanted. And so we went back to her house, got her the money after she FREAKED cuz her mom was gonna kill her over it. Then we went to discovery park where we just hung out and talked alot and enjoyed the scenery. lets see, after that on our way back, I got stung in the head by a bee....that is fucked up let me tell you. Mid sentence and then BAM! OH SHIT MY HEAD! laura thought I was having a stroke or something. So we spent way too long there and we didnt get back till after 8, and I was supposed to be home by 7 ^_^ YAY! anyway, I got home around 8:30 and my parents didnt seem to care. I got chewed out and yelled at for something completely unexpected and I found out that I failed my math test. My math grade went from a 79.9 to a 51.3 from one test. and I still have to make up some other stuff. more like, retake. I hate my math class! I dont even get that stuff. but I do have to get to my japanese homework, so ttyl you guys. Im getting to the bottom of things.
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